[[JASlin]]

I will bring praise.

2012-03-01T21:18:00.003+08:00

It's all so colourful yet so confusing I need some stability.

1 month into the official school term and hey I'm still alive and kicking!

Just some quick catching up, because believe me, I barely have time for anything other than school, work, netball nowadays.

And home has become where I spend the minority of my time at, mostly only to sleep, sometimes not even to shower or have dinner at :(

But hey, school has been great, other than the fact that there's a neverending stream of work, I've had a great time with my friends! :)

Here's most of my class, 13SO3M!

They are pretty nice people, & I genuinely thank God for such an amazing class,

I cannot ask for more, really :')

Random morning when we met for breakfast, at BBK!

RN batch' 11 :)

Jasper's birthday, when we surprised him at 10pm that night on Valentine's Day :)

Take 5, when Q crashed RJ! :)

Happy Birthday Ernest!

404 :)

Part of Raffles Netball, A'div 12 :)

Thank God for all these amazing angels woohoo.

God is my victory, & He is here.

A pocketful of sunshine.

2012-02-18T10:59:00.014+08:00

Take me away,

a secret place,

a sweet escape,

take me away.

Take me away,

to better days,

take me away,

a hiding place.

HELLO HELLO. My long awaited catch up blog post omg. I haven't blogged since like the beginning of this month. Which makes it about a half month hiatus.

Have been very busy with school, right after orientation we have mild lessons and a million reasons to stay back in school for, and after that we have full fledged lessons with the same million reasons to stay back & it's very very rare that I even have dinner at home nowadays :(

Btw the entire post is in weird & random fonts which I can't be bothered to correct there is something wrong with the HTML script thing so yes ignore!

So anyway, gonna blog about the other night at chomp chomp & orientation first!

K more of a photos post for chomp chomp :)

With Dawne & Minchih :)

Q!!!

Ginormous cups of sugar cane juice for every one of us lolol.

You can judge a person's ability to tank spice from the amount of juice he/she has left LOL.

Chun, Zhang, Weihing, Qianyan!

A phone-quality photo of all of us waiting for the bus haha.

Nowwwwww..

ORIENTATION 2012!!

Istoria's our theme for this year's orientation! Super pretty yes? O:

Anyway, I took a pretty long time to look for the photos on facebook and organize all of them oh gosh it was totally messed up everyone uploaded the photos at different times :O

DAY 1: We had to play station games like..

Squeeze into a chair and scream,

Piggy back your friend to go grope other people's ass for a piece of cloth,

As well as hold a straw in your mouth and pass rubber band & human foosball.

It was kinda awkward at first cause we all didn't know each other but it got better after day 1 woohoo :)

Us girls! :)

First OG dinner @ 313 Somerset :)

DAY 2:

Good start to the day haha everyone looks so happy :)

And then we had to do our batch dance for the first time!

We were paired up according to height & this is my dance partner Jesse! :)

He is pretty tall because I am pretty tall HAHAHA.

Hard to learn from the back but nvm we survived hahaha.

Then we had War Games where you had to go to war against other houses hahaha.

All geared up to fighttt!

The face paint left streaks of white on everyone's faces cause the exposed parts were all super tanned after just one day LOL.

Second OG dinner @ NEX! :)

DAY 3:

With Elaine & Dawne aww missed them so much :')

NERDZ.

We had amazing race where we go around parts of the Circle Line & do random tasks haha.

Like taking a camwhore shot of the whole OG,

Going around doing weird things & timing ourselves,

Buying the same drink together and taking a photo like it's an advert,

Wearing our shirts backwards,

And all the girls tying our hair in 3 pony tails, while the guys have to tuck in their shirts and look lyka nerd but I don't have a photo of that so,

As well as Joshua proposing to a random stranger while the rest of the OG looks on with shocked faces hahaha!

Here are 2 of my 3 awesome nerdy OGLs, Dylan and Ann!

Dave wasn't around for the external activities.

Nerdy us woohoo!

Notice Minchih photo bombing at the back hahaha.

Third OG dinner @ J8, with only 5 of us LOL but Dylan & Ann joined us later.

We had Din Tai Fung it was awesome hehe loved the xiao long baos ^^

DAY 4:

Us girls again!

More dancing, last day of orientation! :(

Met Elaine along the corridor and took a photo hehe.

Uhhh OG painting! It's supposed to be some batch project I think..?

THEN WE HAD O'NITE!

Where we dress up & sing batch song & do batch dance & end orientation boohoo :(

We dressed up as nerds hahaha.

Everyone had ties/bowties, specs, white shirt tucked into our shorts lol!

Mememe, with my white bowtie that I made myself from a hairband & hairtie hoho.

With Minchih! Haha their theme was a pyjamas party! ^^

Anyway O'nite was alright, no photos cause nobody took any :(

But the last dance was like omgwhatisthenextstep?! all the way hahaha!

On our way to our fourth but definitely not last OG dinner to NEX rooftop!

And here's our theme Istoria again, set up at the parade square on O'nite, and it was so pretty!

Orientation was fun, never had a better orientation honestly.

Sadly there was no camp unlike RG's, where everyone slept on the EN hall floor.

Then again this is a co-ed school ohwell.

Gonna miss doing all the random retarded things, making & remaking friends from the OG and house and many many more!

Like honestly, there were parts of the OG where I disliked but I'd rather do with than without all of them hehehe.

Really thank God for blessing me with such an enthu OG who are so obsessed with mindeffing games like "HOW MANY MEHMEHS JUMP OVER THE WALL?!" and "FUZZYWUZZY LIKES FUZZY & WUZZY BUT NOT HIMSELF" and "BANGBANGBANG WHO DIED?!" are so non-judgemental and friendly and help everyone out in quiet little ways :)

Things left to blog about:

- Sending Nikita off on Saturday afternoon.

- Surprise birthday party on Saturday evening.

- First day of school today. I'm the most embarrassing student ever.

- Class: 13S03M

- My birthday last friday!

- More OG fun.

- House CIP.

- Vday/Jasper's birthday surprise.

- Take 5.

- Wow show

- School in general.

OH GOSH SO MANY THINGS. But glad I got Orientation out of the way I couldn't have done without blogging it it'd be missing out on a large part of my life! :)

2012-02-06T22:35:00.002+08:00

Things to blog about:

- Last last thursday's day out at Orchard Parksuites with the netballers.

- Hanging out at Minchih's & Chomp Chomp.

- Days 2, 3, 4 of Orientation 2012 (War games, OG dinners etc).

- Sending Nikita off on Saturday afternoon.

- Surprise birthday party on Saturday evening.

- First day of school today. I'm the most embarrassing student ever.

- Class: 13S03M

NO TIME SORRY. Maybe tomorrow :(

Istoria 2012.

2012-02-01T06:44:00.002+08:00

Hi all, I had orientation yesterday and this is my OG BW12 :)

Blogging on the morning of the second day cause I was so so tired last night I decided sleep was of priority so I dropped everything and headed straight to bed, even with my hair wet.

It was Rachel's birthday yesterday too, and we made her a cake from The Icing Room and it was really pretty!! Surprised her in the morning before orientation like at 730, before hoboing on the steps near the MRT station. She left & I went to find the netballers and hoboes some more at the same steps lololol.

Anyway first day of orientation was as good as it could get!

It was so awkward in the beginning, we played some silly MRT game and spent the rest of the time watching other OGs play their ice breaker lololol.

And then there was station games where everyone decided they should loosen up to make it work, especially in close proximity hahaha. Like, reaaaally close proximity, seeing as how they made the whole OG of 20 people squeeze on 4 chairs haha it was quite fun actually.

Storyline was alright, and they put so much effort into it! It's like this series of performances about the houses that they put up, and there were good props & costumes, which evidently lots of effort has been put into, and I don't get how people bear to use their phones, iPods or slack outside during the performances :(

Cheers were great, like RG's, but twice as good :)

Then we organized our own OG dinner and ended up going to somerset since many people went to J8, and the ones who didn't went to Nex.

Slacked at Scape while we came up with an OG cheer and it was productive :)

Feeling pretty thankful for a good OG, especially one that I wasn't looking forward to the day before. Everyone's open to new people, fitting in very nicely yay.

Learning the batch dance this morning, as well as war games in the afternoon.

Here's to an even better day 2 :)

New beginning.

2012-01-30T21:47:00.003+08:00

Gonna blog about Thursday (meeting netties at Orchard Parksuites, where Bekah got a room and we get to hang out and play Taboo, and going to Minchih's house in the evening to play mahjong and to Chomp Chomp for dinner) in a photos post another day.

Friday was study at Dawne's for Saturday's SAT. It was fineee, the test itself.

Except that it was very long and you have to keep pushing on for each section cause the time allocated is just nice.

But it was all MCQs so it wasn't that bad, I feel like I might actually do well for it lor, except that I should never have expectations lest I fall short. Which I usually do -facepalm-

Bought cup noodles to Q's house and got her to cook it for me LOL.

And then I used her laptop while she went to shower lololol feel lyka boss ^^

We took a photo with her new polaroid, it's the Instax 210 and it's big and pretty :)

Went to my aunt's CNY gathering in the evening.

Had alot of fun with my cousins playing Bang! and Saboteur hahaha love Settler Cafe kinda games :)

Won both games of Bang! playing Sheriff, feels super awesome ^^

Found out that Qianyan played the chinese version of it that my cousin told me about, and omg we were both like ahhh love it love it lol!

Cousins & us!

My mum decides to crash LOL.

Played mj at Q's on Sunday afternoon and bball after that.

Many many people came for bball, I think there was enough people to form 3 full teams gosh.

We just flooded the court omg.

I was dying though, no idea what got into me :( And then I was mad tired when I got home that I slept at what, 10?

But glad the others had fun hahaha!

Was supposed to go for frisbee in the early afternoon today with Akoo & her friend but we waited and waited and decided that there was no training afterall, since no one else came :(

Went for netball in the late afternoon and omg it was physical.

Ran round the track, 800m x 7 sets, with very short breaks in between.

Thank God I survived though :)

Slacked around the court with Dawne Weihing Ernest & Sub after training.

So.. It's finally orientation tomorrow. I've never looked forward to it, but I'm not exactly dreading it either. I just feel like, yeah okay it's orientation yup.

It's kinda hard to get me excited about anything at all nowadays, even things like orientation which is supposed to be mad fun. Life is so monotonous to me now this ain't good.

And this is my batch dance:

R u kidding me this is not exactly easy.

But k we will have fun. Hopefully.

Here's to a fun JC life whoo.

枫

2012-01-25T23:05:00.012+08:00

Lyrics are amazing.

Normally I'll block out all the cheem chinese stuff, but this just catches my heart.

So beautiful :')

What do I want?

2012-01-25T22:15:00.003+08:00

Wish I had waffles for a brain instead.

Chinese New Year was.. normal. Doesn't actually feel like it's CNY now, since it's one of the less frequent times that it's in January and I don't really have the mood for it this year :/

Was still alright nevertheless, just less.. special?

CNY day 1 outfit, with mum!

Matching colours :)

With ma bro.

Went to sentosa to look at the CNY flowers and it was so freaking hot and unbearable we left pretty early and was sweating all over gosh. Definitely not what I had in mind for day 1.

Went to my mum's friend's house to bainian in the afternoon.

Came home at night to host our steamboat dinner for my relatives.

My family didn't wake me up before they came AGAIN and I was so messed up, up and down, and I was so cui this time ughhh.

Lost 12 at mahjong lololol but nvm it's fun gathering :)

Outfit for day 2! Love the maxi skirt :)

Went to my uncle & aunts' houses for more visiting on day 2.

Was a much better day than day 1 in my opinion!

I'm sad that CNY doesn't interest me now, it bores me actually :(

CNY day 3: Met Doob at NEX for lunch before coming back home to mahjonggg LOL.

Qianyan, Doob, Jasper!

Was supposed to win 7, but I still owed Jasper money so I didn't win or lose in the end :/

Sent Doobie off hehehe, glad to spend day 3 with her :)

Played with 3 players after she left and it was the fastest game of mahjong I ever played lol.

Super easy to make combinations kinda thing & game.

After the game, Jasper took on the piano and tried to learn how to play 'Barney' while Q & I goofed around hahahah!

He had lots of difficulty LOL and I had my first taste of being a piano teacher haha!

And then after he's finally mastered that one song, I played for him and he was going crazy at how impossible it seems LOL.

Well, it wasn't easy to learn but I'm glad I learnt it anyway.

11 years, no joke!!

End of my cny day 3 :)

NEED TO STUDY FOR SATs NOW DIE DIE DIE.

Going out for the whole freaking day tomorrow.

OH THE GUILT. WHY DID I WANT TO TAKE SATS GOSH REGRETREGRETREGRET.

My Neighbour Totoro.

2012-01-24T22:20:00.007+08:00

This was one of my favourite movies when I was young, along with Spirited Away, all from the same jap guy. They bring you to another world. And sometimes I just wanna revisit those places just to get away. To live without a care in the world.

Haven't blogged from Wednesday.

Thursday: Last day of JIP!

Went out for lunch after school with the netballers cause it was Minchih's birthday!! :)

Had pizza hut again lololol starting to get bored of it.

It was almost a full batch outing haha, except for Amelia, who had Chem foundation :(

Headed to Cheryl's house after lunch for Foodchuck gathering!

It was her birthday in a few days' time so we wanted to celebrate for her in advance.

She found out about many details like the cake and stuff, but it was still fun :)

Also an almost full attendance gathering, missing Kimbo!

We bought her a bra set, and got a set for ourselves too, so now we have a Foodchuck bra and it's really pretty (and comfy) HAHAHA.

Played mahjong & DANCE CENTRAL!

Kinda like my first time playing it, and I'm very lag I know. But it was funnn omg!

Above picture is Mayo & Steph actually dancing & us goofing around at the back, posing with the timed camera hehehe ^^

Looks like a dance crew pose, no? LOL.

Friday: Shopped with Akoo at FEP in the morning for my CNY clothes and was pretty happy with my buys! :)

Was supposed to have training in the afternoon but it was cancelled due to bad weather.

Went to school anyway to meet Dawne & Chin, who had floorball training.

It was Cat's birthday too! :)

Slacked at the courts while waiting for Chin to finish her training hahaha!

Retarded us, we tried plucking Akoo's leg hair to form an 'A' cause it's not the least bit painful for her and it's actually visible irl LOL.

Cabbed to East Coast Park, and thank God we cabbed, cause if not we'd have to walk alooot.

It was Minchih's birthday BBQ! Many people went and it was a happy night for me :)

Here's foodchuckers, classmates, and a combination of both! :)

LOLOLOL the shutter kept going & so did we ^^

Here's Doobie LOL usually she terrorises me, but now it's me terrorising her hahaha!

Mayo & Doobie, love both of them so much :)

Akoo Akoo Akoo finally I get to be taller than her ^^

Clarissa, who finally gets to be taller than me lololol!

Dawne & Ningxin :)

We surprised Minchih with the tea light candles tadaaa it was so pretty :)

Weizhang danced solo for her hahaha!

Gave her a polaroid camera from 14 people in total!

With Doobie & Weihing hahaha omg funny things happened ^^

My favouritest Qianyan :)

With Weihing & Qianyan who got cut off LOL, my bestest guy & girl friends in the world :)

Here's my wonderful group of friends whom I'm always always always happy with: (Left to right, top to bottom)

Zhanchun, Yewhui, Qianyan, Weizhang, myself & Weihing! :)

Went for supper with them, excluding Weihing, cause we all live so near.

Reached home at midnight I think.

It was a great great day :)

Saturday:

Got my OGL's call & my OG.

Turned out to be Ann hahaha and I had her number, so she didn't prank me :(

Kinda disappointing really, but nevermind at least I have my OG now! BW12!

Went to shop for CNY stuff at the NTUC and the crowd & queue is MADDD. Each line is crazily long and it extended all the way till people have to stand in the alleys between the shelves.

Spent the rest of the morning playing the Jay Chou piano book Cheryl lent me and I loved it :)

Was supposed to go to church with Q & Minchih but ended up decorating a cake last minute for Weihing's birthday surprise the next day, resulting in us being late for church, and it poured non-stop with super scary lightning that seemed really near us, so we didn't go in the end ._.

Haven't been to church in WEEKS, have been busy or sick, ughhh I wanna :(

Went to eat at NEX instead, and headed home. Boo.

Sunday: CNY Eve.

Went to Weihing's house early morning for his birthday surprise with Q, Weizhang, Minchih, Dawne, Ernest & Shingliang!

It was really early, cause we all have reunion lunches & dinners so morning was the best.

Weihing went out for a jog with his dad & we collaborated with his sister and blew balloons & water balloons & scrambled to keep our bags and belongings when she announced that he was coming back already.

We went to hide in his toilet, super ready to surprise him, only to realise that Weizhang left his phone on his table LOLOLOL.

Fail max, Weihing was like, "Eh where's he where's he?"

Anyway, cut the cake, ate the cake, ate ice cream, played charades (AGAIN) and it seemed like the end of the surprise when Ernest announced that he needed to head to work.

So Weihing sent him to the porch while the rest of us came out, armed with water balloons & proceeded to bomb him LOL.

And no, Ernest didn't have to go, we just needed to get Weihing to the porch hahaha!

He was very sporting, stood there and let us bomb him LOL (Y)

Then some of them accompanied him upstairs while he changed his wet shirt & the rest of us prepared for a round 2 HAHAHAHA.

Same thing, he sent somebody off and we bombed him AGAIN LOL.

Then he changed his shirt for a second time, thinking it was the end already.

I mean like round 2 is surprising enough right!

BUT NO THERE WAS A ROUND 3 HAHAHA WE DAMN BOLIAO.

Wet 3 of his shirts in the end (Y)

This time he went to shower, clear sign that said "NO MORE WATER BOMBS".

Hahaha we didn't have anymore anyway ^^

Here's us! :)

So it was fun morning and I really mean it because I am not a morning person!

Lunched at NEX with Dawne & Minchih & Q.

Homed, napped for like 3 hours before waking up to realise people were at my house and I had to say 'happy new year' looking like shit ._.

Had dinner before heading to my aunt's house to hang out with my cousins!

Played this really confusing game with them called Bang!

I think I prefer Saboteur.

Yeah so that's my CNY eve. I'll blog about CNY next post teehee.

And some time this past week I Fringed Doob ^^

Everybody should go download Fring cause there's this group call function it's kinda cool.

Except that the connection is really slow sometimes and pisses me off.

But other than that it's fine haha!

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Also, some time last week, I realised that I've been attracted to the things that are out of reach for me, that might have otherwise seemed normal to me, had it not been so 'untouchable'.

It makes me wonder, if I really do want things more than I should if it's presented in such a way that it's hard for me to get.

But so far, all it's been doing is giving me pain & hurt that should never have been there, because everything I want is next to impossible to attain.

It's making me afraid of loving, the most basic yet important thing my Father has taught me.

And I hate it. I don't wanna be afraid of loving. I wanna give unconditionally, like how He does, like how I'm taught to, like how I should. But somehow, everything else makes me so cautious of giving, of loving, for I'm afraid of all that pain & hurt again.

So dear, sweet Lord, whatever your next plan for me is, please don't let me get hurt.

Bring me back into your embrace & show me how you do it so perfectly.

Amen.

Paradise.

Remember when?

2012-01-18T21:09:00.002+08:00

Even if you don't mean anything right now.

I'll always know something good has happened out of this,

no matter how bad things are currently.

Went back to school in the afternoon to play bball yesterday and I kinda totally wasted my time, except for slacking in the canteen and hanging out, cause there weren't many people & the sun was just.. merciless.

Played one game, jumped on the gym trampoline for awhile, showered and headed out of there.

Met Q in town to shop for almost the same high waisted shorts from Topshop that we realise we unanimously set our eyes on.

Made a trip from Knightsbridge to ION's Topshop to realise that the promotion was over and the freaking shorts cost $79 each which were far too much to ask for for one pair of shorts, no matter how comfy & how much I loved it, and it was a futile shopping trip except for a pair of Rubi slippers each that we slipped on immediately for fun and I still haven't really gotten all my CNY clothes.

My stomach kicked up an earthquake and it hurt so badly for no reason & I had to go home :(

It was a fun trip nevertheless, pretty good to see Q so cheerful for no reason too haha!

Today was much much better, though super tiring.

School early morning at 7.40am, science stuff that involves walking around the school and doing pretty brainless & therefore fun activities which I actually enjoyed more than I thought I would, before some movie trivia thing and lunch!

Spent lunch with Mayo Rachel Juleen & was contented with a piece of papaya because I honestly thought I was going to pon the rest of the day and eat at J8 for lunch but then I decided to stay in the end anyway, and conveniently forgot about lunch while playing charades with Mayo Dawne Bekah Ernest Shingliang Hanjie Weihing!

It was sooo funny omg the retarded things charades do to people. And they do seem addicted.

Pretty loud, think neither of us could control ourselves it was that funny lololol!

It was only when we were seated in the PAC for the second half of the day of talks that I realise I haven't had lunch but I survived on strawberry flavoured oreo we got as a prize for one of the activities earlier on in the day teehee ^^

Played charades some more after the talk before going for some poster appreciation thing and was rather tempted to play bball after that but I was really tired.

Headed to J8 with Mayo & bought Cheryl's birthday present on behalf of Foodchuck hehe it's really cute & pretty and we all got one each ^^

An ordinary day, but surprisingly I was tired having not do anything at all, and yet a little happier than I've felt in days :)

Photos from Zhanchun's birthday lunch about a week ago!

Some of the plates there actually form HAPPY 17TH if you could make it out LOL.

The cake, rushed out in 5 minutes flat.

Us, outside Novena Ville in front of some pretty flowers decor thing :)

3 random things:

1. I finished The Hunger Games and it was pretty good except for the ending which was just.. hanging there. And to my annoyance, the movie is only out in March I wanna watch naooo!!

2. Last day of JIP tomorrow. I can't wait to stop having to wake up early.

For now anyway, since school is officially gonna start next month.

Gosh, having been on a break for so long I really don't wanna return back to the possibly even more horrible routine everyday :(

3. SATs is in 10 days, but I haven't even done anything that makes me slightly confident for it I'm screwed and I don't care and that scares me.

This feelings I can't shake no more

This feelings' running out the door

I can feel it falling down

And I'm not coming back around

This feelings I can take no more

This emptiness in the bottom drawer

It's getting harder to pretend

And I'm not coming back around again

You're everywhere.

2012-01-16T16:00:00.003+08:00

I genuinely thought that was the end of this shit, yet it turns out otherwise.

And it's not anyone's fault either.

Tell me, what else am I supposed to do?

If I could scream and demanded that I've had enough, I would. Except that it doesn't solve a shit.

Lord please give me a sign. Anything. It's killing me right here.

:'(

Horrible day in school today.

Sex ed was boring and lame and painful, you have no idea.

Totally not what I had in mind -.-

Didn't go for the 6k run, because I know I would really collapse and die if I did.

And that's different from making excuses because I do know my own body's limits.

Thighs are still aching with every step.

Sincerely hoping for a friend's relationship to go well.

If there's anything I took away from the sex ed class today, it's that relationships are bound to hit the rocks and it's all about how you work it out and make it through, stronger than before.

This is really a test of your relationship, a little sway of faith, and if you want to make this last, you've got to be better than this :)

This afternoon, I sat down and rested, like finally.

Mental guards all down down down.

And I found myself so worn out and tired, defensive of my own feelings for so long.

Then I realised, that it doesn't have to be this way.

I just have to figure out who's good for me and who's not.

Decided to retake my chinese Os last night.

Reason #1: I don't want to spend 4 hours a week and a possible special class that all takes chinese A levels. That is too much to ask from me.

Reason #2: There's no harm retaking, whether I study again or not, because my grade is as lousy as it gets, if a retest gives back a fail I still have my C6, and if it improves well then good for me. Either way I have nothing to lose.

Reason #3: I can change my mind later in March/April if I find it hard to cope anyway.

Reason #4: Daddy says I'm a chinese, I've to do better in it than now.

Well actually initially I didn't want to take at all, but my dad persuaded me otherwise and actually, now that I think about it, this is a much better choice, mostly cause of reason #2.

Need to study for SATs.

I really have no idea what goes on in your head anymore.

Traditional, handmade, yummy.

2012-01-15T21:17:00.003+08:00

It's my last day at Sticky today and I ended up working from 10am to 9pm - almost a full shift - because Jess only came in the evening & demanded I do full shift cause it's my last day & apparently she didn't know.

Anyway, a last day is always special. Got to know Marcus & Mills a little more today, realised how life can really be a bitch to people sometimes.

I was never good at goodbyes, I'd probably never see these people ever again unless I go visit them sometimes & that's quite scary, how different 2 people's lives can be.

And today is one of the days I feel like I am genuinely cared about there, & not as a hi-bye coworker: Mills' casual 'study hard' since I was heading back to school, random doodles on the whiteboard that says 'Bye Jaslin :(', Marcus' 'take care', Auntie asking about what school I go to, Uncle Bryan commenting about how I haven't been working for very long, & Jess' reluctance to accept that it's my last day lol!

Kinda nice of them really, it's the little things that matter :)

It might seem like I'm overly emotional or something, but it's the end of my 3 months at my favorite job so far so I have a right for this!!!

Yeah la really thank God for this experience in this holidays and it was definitely worth the time :)

Though it's kinda sad how when I'm finally being genuinely comfortable in the place that I've to leave already ohwell. I have more important things for me to focus on this year.

This feels like a mini chapter of my life hahaha :)

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Stayed home for the most of yesterday, didn't go to church cause Qianyan fell sick.

Made a short visit to Sengkang's Daiso in the afternoon & we bought the same organizer, only to realize that it only has 5 months wth?

Tomorrow it's back to JIP gosh. Though it ends at 12 tomorrow hehehe. And there's sex ed. Not that I'm horny or anything, it's like finally one interesting event in JIP seriously.

6k run again in the evening. Totally not sure if I wanna go, since my muscles are still aching like siao since Friday's run.

To a fun week ahead! :)

Ache.

2012-01-13T22:23:00.003+08:00

~~Shouldn't be feeling anything at all, but somewhere in here a tiny voice cries out "hurt".~~

~~I know it's ridiculous to be even saying this at all. I wish this sensitivity would go.~~

~~Can't help but feel like I could never come in first to anyone.~~

~~Feigning ignorance: what I do best.~~

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Ran 6k with the netballers at Macritchie today. It was the worst run of my life.

I was totally not expecting the distance, what's more with the up & down slopes & gravel throughout the whole journey, my legs were really numb after the run.

Now my body is aching even more, on top of the ache from gym training 2 days ago.

The worst part is, we're supposed to go for another run on Monday. Same run.

Very very tempted to call in sick :(

JIP talks were boring as usual. 2 hours lunch break were even more boring cause we were new to the campus and we didn't have anything much to do so we're more like hoping the talks will start soon & end soon.

Also today: The first consequences of my very much regretted decision.

Spare me, will you?

Something that keeps reminding us:

2012-01-12T22:56:00.007+08:00

As long as we got love.

So today was the start of JIP and I was late on the first day of school together with Minchih & Weizhang cause we went to school together on 156 and it was caught in a jam :(

Nothing happened to us though, just walked in lykaboss hehe.

Nice to see all my schoolmates after a whole 2 months of holidays!! :)

Sat with my netties on the comfy PAC seats.

Talks were terribly boring yet some were pretty important, I slept for like half an hour to one hour & I'm not alone hahaha!

Dawne sneakily snapped a photo of us while we were asleep.

LOL @ Minchih hahahaha most unglam person ever!!!

The canteen has fabulous food. Maybe it's cause it's in comparison to RGS food lol!!

Loved my lunch haha.

Also today, I opened the cubicle door on Cheryl Goh by accident cause the door didn't lock LOL.

So many epic things today man seriously.

Lepaked at the canteen for awhile after school before heading to Weihing's house with Minchih Elaine Dawne Weizhang Ernest Shingliang & Subastian who came later.

His house is amongst bigass castles seriously. C A S T L E S. And his house doesn't lose out in comparison with regards to size omg. Biggest house amongst my friends, win liao seriously.

So since we haven't got anything to do, we played hide & seek because IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY DREAM SINCE YOUNG TO PLAY HIDE & SEEK IN A GINORMOUS HOUSE HAHAHA!

Totally fun man, so many funny things happened.

The guys swam around in the pool & we chilled around there cause we haven't got change except for Dawne before dinner & playing charades.

Charades was so funny it was epic, we all laughed like crazy hahaha.

If JC were like that everyday I totally wouldn't mind man. Except that it's not :'(

Just realized I don't need to go for Chem foundation class cause my GPA for chem isn't 2.8 & below hahaha for the whole of today I thought it was & that I'd have a freaking long day tomorrow until I checked hehehe!

Also, I need to make a decision about my Chinese by this weekend: to retake HMT o levels, take H1MT A levels, or not to do anything at all. So far the worst choice is H1MT but I really don't knowww I need some solid advice!! :(

Thank God for the wonderful day today, please give me the strength & patience to sit through another day of talks tomorrow plus a 5k macritchie run!!

Also, give me wisdom to make a decision about Chinese ahhhhhh :/

PS. Edited the post 3 posts down and added in photos :)

I got a good feeling.

Start anew.

2012-01-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

The way you find things unexpected.

Watched 1 episode of Personal Preference today before heading to RJ for gym training and believe me, my muscles died.

It's an agony to even type here gosh. It's not actually tiring, it's just really straining on the muscles, activities that are aiming to make them ache for the next 1 or 2 days.

Especially my muscles near the shoulder, biceps and everything.

Don't even wanna lift up my hands at all.

Heard about JC from Jinghan at the canteen and I guess it doesn't sound very enticing.

Then again how good can it get, with all the mugging and unspoken things and all sigh.

Walked around J8 for awhile with Elaine and we talked about stuff and I realised how this "different group of friends" thing we talked about is really gonna keep surfacing in JC, at least for the beginning of the year and that kinda sucks.

But nvm, we will find a place, and we will keep together & survive (Y)

Soooo JIP is tomorrow and no matter how I keep dreading it, it's finally here boo.

It all seems so fast, I haven't really enjoyed my holidays yet :(

Then again it doesn't really count as school yet..

Need to get my brother to get his hands on The Hunger Games book to keep me entertained throughout JIP.

Really hope everyone gets into the school they want.

It just keeps going through my head till now, no idea why either.

Lord help them.

The one thing I regret.

It will be forever yours.

2012-01-10T21:55:00.003+08:00

Especially these few days.

Lord please hold me down & secure me amongst all these many many changes.

When the world changes, only you will remain.

Open House at RI(JC) this morning!

Ended up only going for 1h cause I woke up late & took my own sweet time getting ready.

Bumped into Qianyan, who was also late for her OH, at the bus stop & Avel 1 stop after us LOL.

People living near each other FTW (Y)

Wandered around RJ with the netties & saw so many familiar faces it doesn't even feel like an open house in the end, where you explore a new place cause we've been there so many times & know so many people.

Left after 1 hour and went to Newton with Weizhang to prepare for Zhanchun's birthday lunch!

Moved our plans at night to lunchtime last minute last night because Chun couldn't make it zzz.

Had Korean BBQ! Arranged the food to "HAPPY 17TH" before Chun arrived lol!

Didn't turn out to be much of a surprise cause Q & Yewhui gave it away I think hahaha. Food was great anyway. I love meat.

Surprised him after lunch with a cake that I bought 5 minutes before presenting at a nearby restaurant LOL.

Played 5-10 game to finish food again hahaha.

Fun company :)

Left shortly after for Doob's macdonald's party!

Wow kinda tough to have 2 people's birthdays on the same day, I ate till I was so full gosh.

Would have been a much better surprise if she didn't know it lor zzz.

We planned a macs party for her before she invited us to one LOL.

Good that we knows exactly what she wants, bad that she spoilt her own surprise :(

Anyway, slacked around, played games, ate, and played some more games hahaha.

Was pretty tired today, no idea why too :/

Hope the two birthday kids had fun today ^^

Gym training at RJ tomorrow! First ever gym training I'm going for, hopefully it'll be fine :)

I love these people & this song:

We'll never forget how it feels to be young.

Safe & sound.

2012-01-09T22:09:00.005+08:00

Firstly, past week was okay.

Cleared out my table on 1st Jan, when everybody decided to go out (of my house) when I made an effort to stay home lol okay can...

Went to work on the 2nd of Jan, left early to play bball at RI with Elaine & friends.

Wasn't as fun, honestly. Missed playing with the usual people downstairs my court :(

I didn't feel adrenaline or anything near that and that kinda sucks hahaha!

3rd Jan was pretty fun. Woke up and found both my brothers gone and there was peace in the house cause they have school haha!

Watched Fast & Furious 1 in the morning before heading to Pasir Ris for 404's class chalet! :)

We cycled in Pasir Ris park & played the playground aww reliving our childhood hehe.

Sat at the seaside for quite awhile talking about the transition to JC and everything.

Was a great windy day :)

Met Q when we cycled to Downtown East cause she had a chalet there too haha!

Had a BBQ in the evening, it was just sitting around, watching movie, go BBQ/get food, talk with everybody ^^

Went home with Q and her classmates & just sat downstairs our house for quite awhile, talking about.. life. And we realised we're sort of in the same situation, we just never voiced it out, because of judgements we're so afraid of, and how the people around us expect us to be.

Then we found that we're always there for each other, and we never have to be any different that who/what we are :')

And then we made a call to our most genuine group of friends to ask them out and have fun like we never did in the midst of our superficialness.

Love her so so so much that day. Everyday. HAHAHA!

4th Jan, which was.. Wednesday, had a pretty bad start.

Game with NUS at their school. I totally had no urge to run or anything at all.

The whole freaking morning I was just like whenisthisoverwhenisthisoverughhh.

No idea why that happened also, the absence of adrenaline sucks.

5th Jan. Went to Nikita's house for an indian lunch with 404!

Half of 404 who was there :)

Wow she's going to India forever until further notice in February O:

Lunch was great, though it's kinda like the last time I'd see her )':

Unless we send her off at the airport. Or organise another something. Sigh.

The LRT was cool omg. First time taking LRT in I think 10 years, since young.

Went home & grocery shopping with Q before heading to Marina Barrage to have a picnic with Zirui, Zhanchun, Yewhui, Weizhang!

It was a windy day, my kite's string broke cause it got tangled to someone else's string and flew to the carpark, and I had to go down and pick it up and come back up with a super long trail of string behind my kite and endure people's stares hahaha.

Had drinks & good pasta brought by the guys, wow they cooked for the picnic man. I brought chips & 2 bottles of alcohol & a kite for the picnic only, kinda little compared to them :/

We played charades and it was pretty funny hehe.

Had a great time, in a really long time :)

Met half of JERMS (Joe Evan Rachel Mae) at ION on friday!

Had swensons lunch which was pretty filling gosh.

Wandered around & bumped into a dinosaur:

Aww too cute. It was promoting for the dinosaur live thing at Science Center.

Went to Wild Honey at Scott's Square, which Marissa works at, to drink a Pot Of Organic Tea and a slice of Orange Cake HAHAHAHA.

Rushed to meet Rachel at TPY cause it was Ju's birthday!

Surprise wasn't too surprising but nvm all was well lol!

My retarded friends -heart-

Hahaha love this photo, kinda unglam but we were seriously LMAOing LOL.

Pooled for like 2 hours and Doob & I seriously screwed up haha :/

Yet another day pooling! (Y)

Spent Saturday working half a day. Was kinda fun that day, with no particular occasion haha!

Met my family at NEX at night for dinner at DTF long queue boo.

Walked around and they shopped a little.

- I should update everyday. Totally no mood to update so many days' worth of stuff zzz. -

Spent Friday & Saturday nights + Sunday half the day in the morning & afternoon doing Q's present cause her birthday's on Sunday wootz!

It was a pretty photo album with lots of stuff inside la. 100 pages siol, no joke.

Surprised her at Sakura at YCK.

She thought that it was going to be a dinner for the both of us cause everyone couldn't make it for dinner, and it turns out that there were 8 people in total hehe!

She totally cried, best reaction man ^^

But okay kinda bad to make her feel like shit all my friends can't make it :'(

ALL IS WELL NOW. ALL IS WELL. (Y)

Played games to finish the food, cut the birthday cake and went home!

I seriously ate alot that night. Buffet what hehe.

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Today, we got our O levels results. My higher chinese was super cui I got C6 :(

It's a pretty bad score I know, and it might be kinda.. thickskinned? to say this but I really think I deserved a better score. It wouldn't have felt so bad if I didn't give a damn for this exam but I did, and I would say I put in so much effort for my chinese like I never did in my entire life, and it does sting a little.

My parents didn't really say much, but they didn't need to. -sigh-

But God is good, this will serve as a reminder for the next 2 years to put in my all for everything and I will really mug my ass off.

Shit I think disincentives work better than incentives for me and that sucks.

It was so stressful getting back only 1 paper, I could only imagine how it was for the people from other schools.

It sucks when I see how much they want to do well, how disappointed they are with themselves and I can't help them at all.

And the fact that I already have a top school secured doesn't help.

I mean yes I'm super grateful for the fact that I'm in an IP program, really I am. And I thank God for that.

But I know it in my gut that I wouldn't make it to RJ if it weren't for this.

And I just feel so shitty, so undeserving of this place. The scores that they get for their L1R5 is already so good, yet they can't make it here because of people like me.

At the same time, reality is hitting me in my face with a boom.

O levels sort of decide your future, to a certain extent. You can't deny it, even when people from a supposedly not so good school does super well in life and you can go, hey look, it's not like which school I go to defines me and my future, you know that's one of the exceptions, and people generally do better in better schools and stuff. It is the cold hard truth.

If not, everyone would just be contented going into any school and there wouldn't be such things as cut off points and competition.

And here, people as old as me are deciding on their next stage in life. I mean, wow.

Awhile ago, I still thought hey, the growing up phase is still far away. Teenage years are supposed to be carefree and whatever, and no matter what happens, I'll always have my friends with me and the system can't separate us. But today that impression is really blown to bits.

Everyone is going in different directions in life and happy or not, you're going to have to suck it up and move on.

I'm in this bubble cause almost everyone in my school is going to another school together.

I never knew how much it means, going into RGS, until today.

Feeling really shitty now. Talked to Mayo and she made me feel so much better :')

This is her takeaway from OSL Cambodia:

"Regardless of how lucky you are/unlucky other people are, we can't do anything about it. We just need to make sure we treasure it, and do justice to what we have."

Now I'm up and ready to start my new year in this new school and study really hard to make sure I don't waste a spot in the school, like how I did in RG :)

Well because I DSA-ed, when I didn't need it to get in lol.

Nvm, God is wonderful, He has everyone that I truly care about under His wing, and I'm really grateful for that. Grateful for everything He has done for me, even as early as 4 years ago.

He will take me through this :)

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Played bball with Akoo Dawne Elaine Minchih Qianyan Jasper Weizhang Yewhui Zhanchun this afternoon after results wootz.

Rained a little, switched to Aliboom haha! It's like a void deck game we always played in primary school haha so fun ^^

Akoo was amazed at HDBs and everything lol grrr rich kids.

Went back to bball after it stopped drizzling!

Fun day spent with them :)

Open House & Doob & Chun's birthdays tomorrow! (Y)

We don't always get what we think we deserve, and we don't always deserve what we get.

New Year's Resolution.

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1. Make more time for the people I love.

2. Be more firm.

3. Be happy.

4. Be myself, regardless.

5. Make choices I won't regret.

6. Give people a chance. Start on a fresh note with people I had bad times with.

7. Give my all in things that I care about.

8. Don't give up on life.

9. Don't give up on people.

10. Keep my close friends even closer in all the madness.

11. Be more accepting.

12. Learn.

13. Pray.

14. Look back on the last day of 2012 & genuinely say it's been fulfilling.

15. Focus on the Lord & only Him.

It's gonna be all new. I'm gonna be 17 wow.

A new school, new faces, new friends, new environment.

We're gonna start from ground zero.

It might actually be a good thing, really.

As much as I dread JC, I don't see how it might help so..

Here's to a good year y'all! Be nice, be happy, be well.

Most importantly, keep the smile! :)

Your name is glorious, glorious.

2012-01-01T10:56:00.009+08:00

Just realised I haven't updated since Christmas Eve wowww.

I haven't even used my computer since then gosh.

Speaking of which, I foresee needing a new Macbook in the very very near future.

Mine has been with me since P6, it's starting to show signs of age :(

Anyway, some overdue photos.

Christmas Eve Eve:

Us Batch 11 (or part thereof) with Ms Chng at her 10th year anniversary :)

Everybody from all batches!

This is alot of people wowwwww.

Us w ith Jinghan & Cat, who I haven't seen in such a long time haiii :)

Farewell in the afternoon:

Grand entrance hahahaha (Y)

Batch 11 without Akoo & Minchih.

Hard to imagine this place being ancient to us in a few years' time :(

With Mrs J, who've helped & taught me so much since I was P6 :)

With Ms Cheong, whom we always love to bully ^^

Changed & got ready for Cara's Christmas party!!

It was awesome awww I love her house & all their parties & whatnot ^^

Went for my uncle's Christmas party on the eve!

It was a small one, & there were good fooooood, especially the lasagna.

Also, during this Christmas in all the parties, I have confirmed that I am a meat lover to the extent that I am practically a carnivore at times. Nothing makes me more happy in a buffet kinda setting than good meat + good wine :)

On Christmas itself, I started reading Angels & Demons from the moment I woke up till 5 in the afternoon, finally completing the book, only allowing time for lunch & nothing else.

Not even toilet breaks. I am serious. And disgusting.

Spent the night drinking & playing Monopoly with my family hahaha omgosh.

Yeah that was Christmas for me, didn't really do anything cool but it was enough, considering how we don't usually even give a damn about Christmas.

Happy Birthday to my Daddy God :)

In town that day to watch MI4 with Weizhang, Zhanchun, Weihing & Q!

The last MTWTFSS of the year.

M: Played bball on Boxing Day with Zhanchun, Weizhang, Jasper & Q haha haven't played with them for so long!!

T: Went to shop at Somerset and also Shaw Centre for my uniform.

There was such a long queue oh gosh. Luckily I bumped into a fellow schoolmate & we bought ours together so I didn't have to queue from the back :)

Bought 3 blouses & 2 skirts I hope that's enough! Got a freaking L for my skirt hahahaha the sizes are all so small!!

W: Went for floorball training at RJ with Elaine, Akoo & Cara!

Dawne & Jinghan paid us a visit after their run at macritchie with the netballers.

I think.. floorball ain't my kind of thing really.

I can't do sports that requires an extension like a stick for nuts really.

T: Went to RI to play bball in the noonish with Dawne, Elaine, Weexuan, Subastian.

No idea how we ended up there except that Weexuan was super late zzz.

Anyway, other than the fact that we can't even play 3-3, it was quite fun I guess :)

Cut my hair that night, when I realised that my hair was waist length already O:

2 inches shorter yes! Not in my face when I play bball/netball anymore yayyy.

F: Went to school early in the morning for a match against NUS with RJ!

It was not bad, makes me more tempted to join back netball now hahaha.

Met Foodchuck at Cheryl's house in the afternoon and we played mahjong haha!

Haven't met them for a really really long time, only on the 30th was everyone free except Mayo :(

Watched Sherlock Holmes at night & I didn't really understand it at all what is this hahaha.

S: It's my daddy's birthday on the last day of the year!

Went to my aunt's house to have steamboat before counting down & celebrating his birthday one day later haha.

S: It's New Year's Day today yayyy. Somehow I can't register it's 2012 already wow.

Here's to an amazing year ahead :)

If not now, when?

New Year's Eve:

2011-12-24T15:38:00.001+08:00

"It's suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the New Year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. To remember both our triumphs and our missteps - our promises made, and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures - or closed ourselves down, for fear of getting hurt. Because that's what New Year's is all about: getting another chance. A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about 'what if' and start embracing what would be. So when that ball drops at midnight - and it will drop - let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other. And not just tonight but all year long."

Undo what I've become.

2011-12-24T00:00:00.004+08:00

This entire week was greaaaat :)

Well except for the fact that I lost trust in a friend. Which disappointed me quite a bit.

But it's okay, cause it's a blessing in disguise I guess. I mean what could be better than God's plan for anything right? -positive- (Y)

Weekend was great, worked on Saturday, and it was so busy and crazy cause it's 1 week to Christmas and everyone is buying gifts and ordering Santa's Mix.

Mahjong with Q, Jasper & Avel on Sunday cause we have nothing better to do, as usual.

I can't get kpop, I really can't. Don't understand why people like something they don't understand. Unless they use a translator. Which is quite tedious don't you think?

Haha k nvm anyway think I lost like 8.

Monday was awesome, went for RJ training at RG! It was quite good cause.. I like the feeling of training for the sake of it. No competitiveness, no pressure.

Did medicine ball stuff cause it was raining outside.

Though I kinda died but my fitness wasn't as horrifying as I imagined :)

Homed, napped before heading out to town again with Q to meet Weihing in the evening.

Had dinner & played pool at Cine before Weizhang & Zhanchun came!

Haven't meet all of them for so long :')

Watched Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol! It was an okay movie cause.. Okay it was not bad, pretty exciting & cool (esp the car omg), but I had a headache towards the end of the movie, possibly from super front seats despite buying them a few hours before, so I was just feeling kinda horrible :(

Cabbed home with Q, Weizhang & Zhanchun. Thank God for friends living near me.

Tuesday was shopping day with my mum & bros. Went to City Plaza and bought a pair of boots/heels. Mum bought alot of clothes. Headed to City Hall to shop some more.

Mango has a sale now, good time to buy all the basics!! Super cheap :)

Worked on Wednesday. Super busy again omg.

The only working day of my week whoops. Spend so much, work so little tsk.

Thursday was slack mahjong day. Again.

Joel & I went to Q's house and cause someone backed out last minute, we ended up playing 3-player mahjong omg. Lunched at a tempo hawker centre, went to the supermarket to get grapes & candies before playing mahjong again, this time with Jasper.

Omg think it's super no life haha but whatever. Holidays are meant to be doing things like these lololol.

Today was awesome! Went back to school to play netball with RJ & super old seniors & juniors.

It's this RGS/RI ex-seniors day where everyone goes back and hang around & play netball.

It was also Ms Chng's 10th year anniversary of coaching RGS so we all stood around and celebrated with a humongous cake, and brought her to tears with the captains of all batches' speech :')

Loved playing on court today, not as tiring as I thought!

Went to Elaine's house with Dawne & Evan to shower/eat/rest, before going back to school for farewell.

Cabbed to & fro.

I have been cabbing so much it's bad for my pocket. I think I cabbed at least like 5 times this week. Which is considered super alot, taking into account the fact that I don't usually even cab once a week.

Farewell was alright! Hard to imagine after planning 3 years of farewell for our seniors, it was finally our turn to be bade farewell to.

Anyway it was nice, they put so much effort into their gifts :')

Loved the video collage of us hahaha!

Went to Cara's Christmas party in the pouring rain after farewell.

It was small & nice, they had a big Christmas tree & lights & snowflakes & decos.

Band Hero, Love Actually (which I don't understand), food, gift exchange!

In which I got a cute blue bag with little hearts that is a little.. old fashionedly cool.

That I am very satisfied with omg I'm totally gonna bring it out ^^

Had a good time teasing my parents about each others' exes when I got home.

Also, had a good chat with Mayo on MSN about JC which lasted from 11+ till 2am.

We basically covered everything because she is so anxious about it hahahah!

It's Christmas eve as of now!

Need to do last minute shopping & attend a party today/tomorrow, since it's 2.10am now.

Thank God for accompanying me through the night, for I am frightened by this book I am currently on - Angels & Demons, by Dan Brown.

The movie scared me enough, & yet I still went to read the book.

I need to understand, if not the fear will always haunt me ridiculously!

And in the process of it, get haunted even more.

Oh dear.

Turn me around, pick me up

Undo what I've become

Bring me back to the place

Of forgiveness & grace

I need You, need Your help

I can't do this myself

You're the only One

Who can undo what I've become

稻香

2011-12-16T21:29:00.005+08:00

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑

微微笑小時候的夢我知道

不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠

回家吧回到最初的美好

Went for Abercrombie & Fitch launch with my classmates yesterday morning:

Happy girls queueing up to see hot models lol, kidding la haha!

It was just fun to join in the buzz, that's the whole point of their marketing strategy anyway ^^

Anyway, the queue wasn't that outrageous, it's much better than the transformers ride in USS!

The store itself was.. dark.

And full of people: models, salespersons, shoppers & oglers LOL.

There was only one half naked man on the launch itself, unlike the previous days where they were all parading themselves outside the store.

We had to queue to get complimentary polaroids with him!

The doormen! Super cool hahaha :)

There was a neverending stream of girls going up to them for photos individually & greedy me wanted a photo with both so I just stood in between & sort of pull them together while Doob took a photo LOL ^^

Anyway, left for work after that.

And worked again today. And going to work tomorrow.

Omg what was I thinking to schedule work on consecutive days?!

Anyway, only gonna work one day next week so.. should be fine :/

Can't wait for next week it's christmas wheeee ^^

Someone like you.

In the end, it doesn't even matter.

2011-12-14T21:23:00.007+08:00

Holidays have been good so far.

Have been scheduling working quite a lot so I don't actually have much free time to myself.

It's good & bad actually, but more good I think..?

Photos from JERMS picnic the other day! Like 28th november which was pretty long ago but I have been so busy & lazy I haven't gotten around to posting them oops.

Mae locked her album I think, so I can only see photos of myself lol.

Early start to the morning hahaha annoyed at having being dragged up so early D:

Went to this park that nobody goes to hehe.

Good for you if you know where this is ^^

Sat around & ate breakfast, having an actual picnic before..

..we were visited by a friend hahaha.

We got distracted & started catching worms in our empty juice carton instead.

It's quite fun actually, reminds me of how I used to catch spiders when I was in lower primary in our school backyard and compare with my friends in my school bus whose spider looks cooler hehe. Never really understood girls who play with barbie dolls hahaha don't judge k!

And then we headed to the big empty field to play frisbee! :)

This means I can try for frisbee next year, right?

Hahaha nah not really sure what to join yet.

"When the time comes, you'll know."

A picture of Su looking like she's trying to seduce me.

We're supposed to be uhm. Creatures in the garden.

TRANSFORMERS.

I forgot what this is called.

And then when we got bored of worms & frisbee we tried doing stupid things like jumping over the railing & having a try at parkour haha!

Fun day!!

Here's Rachel, Sheryl, Sulynn, Joeline, Jaslin & Marissa at attempting to be 6 of the 7 dwarves :)

I'm supposed to be organizing the 2nd picnic oh gosh which park is good?!

Anyway, the past week had been great!

1. Went jamming with netballers & kinda failed cause we didn't really know what to jam..? And also cause we listen to different songs. And that we weren't that good haha. Lunch at pizza hut before heading to Cara's house to play her new Kinect! It was goooood omg sadly she didn't have the dance disc.

2. Worked alot, got closer to some of them, was pretty good :)

3. Watched 那些年 (You're The Apple of My Eye) finally and it was so funny hahaha omg I have a thing for this kinda humour seriously LOL. But it was a disappointment because people kept saying it was very sad & they cried, so I'm like wow okay, so I expected death throughout the movie BUT NOBODY DIED I WAS LIKE WHUT SERIOUSLY?! And also there wasn't really any atmosphere partly because it was a morning movie, I had work in the afternoon. But there were only 2 rows of people omg zzz..

4. Watched Netball Nations Cup finals with Q & her friends, Dawne, Theora, Weexuan. Wasn't that exciting, either because I watched WNC earlier this year which was REALLY good, or that they are just not that great :/ Singapore got 2nd to Fiji!

Dinner with Q & Brandon at this prata shop at ave 8 & went to bbk for the first time, cause the other times didn't really count haha!

5. Went to USS yesterday with my family! Transformers ride was so awesome, the 1h+ queue was totally worth it, though a turn off so we didn't go a 2nd time :/ Had a headache, & it was my 3rd time there so it wasn't really that cool but weather was great so I thank God for that! :)

6. Went for training today in the morning with Elaine & Dawne. First time in ages since I woke up at 630 gosh. Regretted a little when dragging myself out of bed but went for it anyway and it was good! Though I have absolutely no sign of fitness left in me and I was all clumsy & whatever :( Totally lost touch, feels horrible boo. But I thank God for a wonderful day at training & good weather! Haven't seen my juniors in awhile too :)

7. Met Ee-ian after 2 years today, he just came back from Perth! It was awesome meeting an old friend :) He hasn't really changed much except having grown taller than me now, and having an accent hahahaha! Brought him to eat nice ramen at FEP before walking around Orchard & dropping by at the new Scotts Square and visiting Marissa who works there! It is a posh & empty place that I don't foresee going in again because it is out of my league hahaha.

We walked all the way from Orchard to Dhoby catching up on each others' lives. Australia sounds like a pretty good place where you play sports only in winter, head to the beach in summer, have parties in their gigantic houses because it is affordable, drive at 16 and buy convertibles at a 3-digit price (!!!).

Gonna meet my classmates tomorrow morning & head to the A&F launch where everyone is freaking out about the models who parade their well toned bodies & taking photos with them hahaha. Gotta join in the buzz, yknow? ^^

And then I'll be working for the next 3 days yay gogogo!

有没有，没差

2011-12-07T18:00:00.001+08:00

I don't wanna be scared of loving because Lord, You taught me how to love.

From my iPhone.

2011-12-06T09:51:00.001+08:00

Hey y'all, life has gotten better, I've been working & playing hard :)
Worker throughout the weekends, one of them asked why would I want to work on weekends and I realised it's cause I usually go out on the weekdays instead hahaha.

So anyway work was great, play day was even better.
Didn't work on Monday, cycled to Jalan Kayu to eat roti prata with Q hehe it just feels like we haven't been in touch with each other for more than a few days, which is quite long already, given the frequency that we meet lol.
The trip there was super tiring, many uphills & humongous downhills which meant that we have to cycle up the humongous uphill on the trip back.
So we took a shortcut on our return :)

It was the first time I've ever exercised since forever gosh.
Didn't play bball in the afternoon cause somebody was so sure it would rain in the afternoon. And it didn't. Grrrr.
Mahjong all the way for like what, 7 hours? O:
2 tables in Q's bedroom wowww.
I lost hahahha :/

I's time for work again yayyy :)

PS. Here's a picture of us & Zoe Tay the other day hehehe.

I should have been gone, long ago.

2011-12-02T21:56:00.003+08:00

So distant. I lost vision.

Honestly, it doesn't make a difference whether you're away or not.

Maybe I'm expecting too much from you. Too much for who you're supposed to be to me.

A special friend, who's important to me.

But am I?

Somehow I don't think this is anywhere near unreasonable, if you're that special to me.

Unless you're not. And neither am I, to you.

Pretty much self explanatory, yes?

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Worked yesterday, working tomorrow.

It has gotten better, praise the Lord.

Out with Q today, haven't went out with her for quite awhile!

Watched Already Famous which was pretty boring except for Xiaogui who is so cute :)

Went to my condo to camwhore & play pool!

Kinda simple day :)

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow.

I can't believe that I stayed till today.

Yeah, you & I will be a tough act to follow.

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise.

If you only knew.

2011-12-01T11:29:00.004+08:00

Hello! More photos from FAM/prom before I properly blog.

I promise it's the last you'll ever see of my FAM night hahaha cause everyone uploads at different times I have to wait to see it on facebook before I put it up here :(

At my mum's salon!

My mum!

The pretty lady who single handedly conjured wonderful hairdos for us :)

Steph, whom I haven't seen in a long time :(

Crystal, whom I haven't seen in a long time either :( :(

Hey foodchuck when are we going out to play!!

Evan & I with Mr Angullia!

Mr De Souza!

Mr Evans who is in a kilt!

Wow just realised I have multi-racial teachers.

Anyway, didn't really see alot of my teachers that night, & I've no idea where the photo of laoshi & I went :/

Us going on the MaxiCab barefooted. Okay I'm the only one barefooted ._.

Hurts pretty bad boo.

In the cab, feeling like superstars hahahahha.

And then we went to play at Cara's garden & her dad's vintage car which I posted awhile ago so.. moving on!

Where we slept hahaha.

Cara's house is awesome :)

Yeah okay now I'm done! FAM seems so far away now.

Photos post coming up:

JERMS picnic! We took a lot of photos of us goofing around ^^

Oh yes and we watched Breaking Dawn later that day. (Lol I kept typing Dawne hahaha!)

Jacob with me + the rest. LOL okay kidding!!

Rachel, werewolf with scary mouth, Juleen, Edward with Bella, Doob, Jacob/Taylor Lautner with me!!!! HAHAHAHAH (Y)

Us & chipmunks which were just randomly standing around.

We were blocking a HUGE crowd from crossing when taking this photo haha.

Worked on Tuesday.

Went out with Doob Ju Rachel again on Wednesday!

Lunched, pool, mahjong, taitee/bridge.

Mahjong tiles were smaller than the first part/section of your finger omg it's a test of my patience hahaha!

Gonna work again today gogogo! (It's payday today hehe)

Oh yes and I've started studying for SATs today.

Well barely, but it's a start! :)

Here's to a great December.

Grow. Keep growing.

Don't stop.

心中的花园

2011-11-28T22:23:00.002+08:00

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Haven't been updating oops.

Been rather busy & lazy & I don't really turn on my macbook much nowadays.

Have been watching 美乐加油 too hehe Mike He is quite hot ^^

So I'm back from Hong Kong!

It's nothing much really, kinda like Singapore actually.

MRT is MTR, which makes it kinda convenient to navigate around the country, things are usually in fan ti chinese but often with English, they mostly speak Cantonese which sometimes I can figure out if not I'd just ask them to repeat in Chinese, the country is really like Singapore, just a tad less developed..?

I mean like Singapore is cleaner & the people are nicer la and idk hehe I just love Singapore.

Never realised that before leaving for 1 week plus lololol.

Really missed everything in Singapore & everyone here, when it's barely like what, 2 days? that I've been in hk.

Disneyland was alright, though not very fun for thrill seekers like myself, they only have like 3 miserable thrilling rides, which are not very scary actually.

But the fireworks was great, they do it daily, and I caught it thrice!

First time was when I went there to play, second was from my hotel, third was on the plane leaving HK and the timing was just right, we saw it from above super cool!! :)

But it's still quite fun la makes me wanna watch/rewatch some of the disney shows.

Ocean Park was much better, I loved the rides that makes you feel like you're gonna die lol!

Plus it wasn't their school holidays now so the queues were relatively short I played some of the rides twice hehe super worth it.

Shopping.. Nah wasn't that fun. Didn't really buy much stuff for myself nor my friends :(

There was a 女人街 which is pretty much like Bugis Street here, and my mum did a great job bargaining hahaha!

Overall, the thing I like best was the food in Hongkong, especially the dimsum!!

Yumyum every meal was tasty yayyy happy :)

Makes up for the horrible plane rides which I hated so much.

Feels so miserable in the 3.5 hours times 2 to and fro even with TV :(

Think I have plane sickness hahaha.

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Life back in Singapore was GREAT.

Missed everything here, really, I know I mentioned above but I must emphasize again haha.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder (is that right?)!

Stayed at home for the whole of Saturday to use the comp lol no life.

Must make up for the whole week's worth of comp time.

Actually I don't really use the comp nowadays, ever since I got my iPhone.

But I didn't really intend to use the whole day I just.. did. Before I realised :/

Sunday was spent at Sticky, worked from 10-6 before going to meet Q Brandon Reef for dinner.

Had Din Tai Fung, walked around Orchard, got blessed by a monk, they had horrible green teas, went to high class places where I don't belong in, yeah.

Well it was fun haha :)

But I doubt I can go Genting with them boo :(

Today is Monday & Monday is goooooood :)

Went out with JERMS early morning, super sleepy but I love them too much to pangseh them hehe.

Visited a park & had sandwiches & juice, played frisbee & boomerang, took photos, caught worms, bumped into Mediacorp artistes, took a photo with Zoe Tay hehehe ^^

Oh yes, this is a non-photos post there are some FAM photos & HK trip photos & JERMS photos which I will upload when I feel like it :)

Headed down to Sticky to find Elaine before meeting Doob Ju Rach at Cine in the afternoon.

Watched Breaking Dawn which wasn't as bad as some people described..?

Got over Jacob but he's back hahahha! ^^

Went to Scape to play free Kinect & pool with them before heading home hehe.

Got a letter from Ju which she secretly put into my bag aww.

Actually I discovered it when we were playing but then I guess she wanted us to open it when we get home so I didn't say anything haha!

Love all of them & their retardedness & bad humour which I badly missed :')

Working 4 days this week leggo!!

有一天你会真的了解

I wish you enough.

2011-11-20T22:30:00.003+08:00

How many can last till the very end?

Life has been alright.

Came in 2nd to our juniors in the tnet street netball thing on Saturday.

It's an achievement to us already, cause we haven't been training for what, half a year? Gasp.

Got half the prize money while the rest goes to the school for their fund next year :)

Went to work after that, was so terribly tired, I should never work after netball ever.

I was on the verge of collapsing when I left at 6+ to meet my family for dinner.

Arrived at the restaurant first and finally rested since 530 in the morning.

Head on the table, didn't care if anyone was looking.

Family visit Sticky for the first time and was awed by how they make the candies like everybody else who visits the shop hahaha.

They are so easily amused, mum & dad literally stood there for 15 mins asking me a gazillion questions about how they make the candy, what do they do with it, and how much they earn.

The candymakers looked like they enjoyed the attention very much (which is the norm for them I guess).

Sat by the river waving & shouting to random people in the boat tours and competing with each other to see who get more waves back and in the course of which, attracted lots of attention.

Such attention seekers tsk.

There was a bubble show at 9pm and everyone just crowded around trying to poke at the bubbles, young or old. Atmosphere was great and it really felt like it was snowing wootz.

Christmas is actually (almost) here! :O

Stayed home the whole day today to pack.

It didn't really happen, I just wasted time away watching tv and slacking around.

Nothing solid was accomplished.

Oh yes, pack for what?

I'm going to Hongkong tomorrow :)

Ain't as excited as I was for Australia cause you just go shopping in Hongkong and visit the Disneyland which of course cannot be compared to the theme parks in Gold Coast, and Ocean Park, but it'll do. At least we're going to have funnn ^^

Theme parks beat shopping for me, anytime.

Treated my family to a $71.15 breakfast today cause I got my first pay from last month :D

My dad, seeing as how costly it was, only wanted me to pay half but I guess if you want to treat people to a meal you can't pay half what, where's the sincerity man.

Made him take the full amount and I told him to take it as my expenditure in Hongkong ^^

It felt great, so this is how independence feels like wootz!

Need to wake up at 4.45am tomorrow for my flight at 8+.

Gonna bump into Evan at T1 too hehehe :)

God bless us with a wonderful trip! Amen.

Contentment, like happiness, is by choice.

Farewell Alma Mater.

2011-11-18T20:15:00.006+08:00

Hey it's prom! :)

Went to my mum's shop in the early afternoon with the netballers to prepare.

We were like carrying many things like aunties, cause we needed our stuff for prom like dress, shoes, and also sleeping bags for sleepover later on that night!

Uhm no photos for that period but it was fun hehe I did my hair first, some of them went to buy lunch and tabaoed for us, and we did make up and..

I trimmed my eyebrows O:

I mean okay it's not that a big deal but I never thought I'd do it, my mum made me.

And I quite like the results leh hehehe :)

Actually FAM isn't really all that fun, you just go around being shocked by some people's transformations and take photos and more photos and eat and hang around till it's time to go home.

It's the before & after that's fun, really glad I went to FAM with my batchies :D

So we were all being girly and going oooh over hair and aaah over make up and I put nail polish for some of them hehe :)

Really glad it was my mum's off day that day & her customers didn't come down so she would be free to do 9 girls' hairdo, and that she was willing to help.

We saw Zhuoning & her friends next door doing their hair & makeup too haha super coincidental!

My mum bunned up my hair in a cool way and added braids at the side & around the bun I totally loved it :)

Most of the time I've been letting my hair down in occasions like wedding dinners & it's nice to have this as a change hehe.

And also almost everyone let down/curled their hair I'd feel so.. normal -shrugs-

Split up after that - some of them went to Cara's house to put our stuff while the rest of us who weren't done took a cab there afterwards.

Photos in no particular order cause I koped all of them off facebook.

Probably gonna have more to come after the rest uploads theirs.

With 404!

Nikita rebonded her hair hahahah so cute :)

Rachel, Evan, Ju & Suyun!

Juleen!

Here's a random photo of my bun & braids :)

Chin Koo & I!

Same, except Chin with closed eyes haha!

Akoo myself & Joy!

Amelia, Chin, Elaine!

Amelia totally has what it takes to be a model wootz :)

With a little more than half of JERMS who were there that night!

Rachel Sheryl Joe & Evan!

ANDDDDD.. GUESS WHO WON BEST DRESSED TABLE.

Hahaha that's right it's us netballers yayyy!

At first nobody responded when they said 'table 16'. I guess we didn't even thought that was possible but hey now that I looked backed at it, it is quite cool :)

Here's the same photo as the first one, of us BEST DRESSEDs :)

Anyway we had to leave cause Cara called a Maxi Cab and it was here.

My feet hurt so much that I took out my heels in the lift & walked barefooted across the lobby & the loading & unloading area & into the cab lol!

There was no single blister it was just like.. painful after being arched so high for so long.

And the Maxi Cab IT WAS SO COOL.

It was like a school bus except that we sit facing each other.

We felt so much like superstars like yknow, all dressed up, super gorgeous, and leaving a hotel, possibly going to our concert venue HAHAHA.

"We're going on a world tour baby!"

When we were reaching Cara's house, because all of us were going to the same place, the driver's like, "You guys all live together?"

And I'm like, "Yeah we're sisters what!"

And then he ONNED THE LIGHTS IN THE VAN & TURNED AROUND IN AMAZEMENT AND WENT LIKE, "HUH REALLY? CANNOT TELL LEH YOU GUYS LOOK SO DIFFERENT!!!"

It was so so funny hahahaha and he rambled a whole lot of 4-letter cheng yus when Cara tipped him 5 bucks lololol!! ^^

Anyway it was super fun starting from right after FAM see what I meant about the before & after being the fun parts of FAM thing? :)

Clubbing in the garden lololol.

With Elaine! She's with heels & I'm not do not be deceived!!!

Camwhoring in Cara's dad's super cool vintage convertible.

IT IS GORGEOUS I love it omg it's like a convertible, which is very cool already, and the vintage makes it super ultra cool!!!

A family photo hahaha :)

A family photo 2, except with our trademark frownsmile :)

LOVE MY BATCHMATES SO SO MUCH. FAM wouldn't be so awesome without them!

We had a hard time taking out the gazillion pins in our hair & removing our make up.

Sigh being a girl is hard.

Slept at her living room which is super comfy with the carpet while watching a movie.

Think I slept at 2 haha super tired that day.

Woke up the next morning and we ordered macs delivery woohoo!

Stupid me went to schedule work the next day so I had to leave early with Minchih to go home & put my stuff down and rush to work when I could have slacked at Cara's the entire day :(

But nvm, it was Elaine's first day of work, yes she's working at Sticky with me now! :D

Met Q & her bro after work that day and went to Settlers with them cause she had a job interview. This is awesome we both work at Clarke Quay now :)

Missed 6.1 BBQ hahahahha.

Worked the next day in the later shift too, and I found out that I was gonna be the only one there that night and the thought of it was pretty intimidating cause I was never the only girl there, and the full timer was on leave too.

So I called Elaine, who said she had nothing to do the whole day & would gladly come down to help hehe love her man, I'd have been so lonely boo.

Q & Brandon came to say hi haha it was nice of them.

Q brought her friend Xenia down later on to swap ezlink cards with me cause she was going for the party at Zirca that night & she didn't have identification.

Left for home at 10+ that night, only to go back to Zirca cause the bouncer was anal and said the card didn't looked like her and I had to go and claim it back haha.

He threatened to call the police if I lent my card to somebody else again lolol like he can remember man!

Anyway it was kinda cool, saw lots of weird looking people there, and saw how a club looked like. I was totally underdressed but ohwell haha not like I was gonna club.

Saw Joel & Weihao there too! All the clubbers tsk haha.

Reached home close to 12 and my dad waited up for me as usual, even though I kept telling him to go to bed cause I felt bad ):

He cooked a bowl of noodles for me when I showered and when I came out I'm like awww :')

Such a sweetie.

Stayed home the whole day today, intended to pack up my room but procrastination got the better of me and I spent the entire day watching tv, dramas, videos, slacking away wowww.

Need to head down to Kallang tomorrow for the postponed finals for the street netball thing.

It's at freaking 645 ahhhhh now I sort of wish we didn't get into finals but ohwell God has a plan for all of us :)

It's supposed to end by 8 so I can shower & head down to work at 10.

Okay this is a really long post bye.

Drop the angst.

Not just you.

2011-11-15T09:56:00.001+08:00

Posting from my iPhone for the first time I wanna see how it turns out! :)

Anyway it's FAM today, which means prom btw.
Spent yesterday shopping for girly stuff like nail polish & remover etc with Ju, and watched 2 Vin Diesel movies at my house (The Pacifier & F&F 4 hehehe he is so hot) while putting our nail polish.

And also last night, I've said whatever I can with whatever patience I'm left with, & as much as I don't want this to go wrong, I can't bring myself to care like how I did anymore.
Maybe it's me, maybe it's me.
But I tried to ignore the vibe I got from you & acted like all was fine even though I was sure you got the damn message.
Well either you didn't or you chose to ignore it but it doesn't matter, all I know is that didn't work & I'm done trying.

Maybe I'm being too selfish.
Lord tell me what to do? ):

Yknow what? I'm gonna keep myself busy.

Haven't been able to fall asleep without phone in hand these days.
Looks like distraction is necessary to make me rest.

The one that got away.

2011-11-14T20:40:00.002+08:00

Not by choice; by negligence.

The past week has been eventful.

Finally finished my O levels higher chinese exams and shit, it was horrible.

Totally don't know how to write a positive bao zhang okay prepare to die.

No expectations no disappointment.

Went to play mahjong at least thrice in the past week & won in all 3 times ^^

Turning into aunties hehehe.

Sorta made new friends over the past week too :)

Had tnet carnival at Scape yesterday, which is also the same event as Styletz's performance.

They won 3rd wow hehehe wonderful ^^ Loved their new choreo.

We got into the finals, which is top 4, and it's pretty surprising cause it was really messy and I didn't even play well. But praise the Lord at least we didn't waste our time there.

Poured halfway & our finals was postponed nuuuu.

I had a pretty hard time with myself that evening, no idea what's gotten into me.

But talking to Q in the car helped. And all that rain.

I'm gonna get better cause that's what I know I'd do.

FAM is tomorrow & I am excited to see the batchies glam up and everyone else at Marriot!

We're all heading to my mum's salon to do our hair and make up and sleeping over at Cara's house after that! It's amazing that my mum agreed to the sleepover after calling Cara's mum hahaha wootz thank You Lord :)

Gotta head to work straight the next morning though, gonna be tiring but I can't waittt.

Last time I worked was the last day of October and gosh it's been two weeks.

Everyone's starting to get jobs now this is actually quite fun ^^

For an amazing week ahead!

In another life, I would be your girl.

We'd keep all our promises, be us against the world.

In another life, I would make you stay.

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away.

The one that got away.

So many things I should have said when I had the chance.

So many times we took it all for granted.

I'd never thought we would ever end,

I'd never thought I'd lose my best friend.

Everything is different now,

Can we stop the world from turning?

I'd never thought I have to let you go,

I'd never though I'd ever feel this low.

I wish I could go back,

Can we stop the world from turning?

Gone are all the days, when we swore we'd never break.

And now I'm left here alone.

Graduation.

2011-11-11T21:48:00.008+08:00

Raff11es.

Got this photo from the batch tumblr (credits credits!), which is here by the way.

It was awesome, I was skeptical at first but it turned out so wonderful :)

Anyway this graduation post is 1 week late and I have reasons for this super late post!

Have been waiting for photos on fb to be up to post everything together.

And also..

I have been trying to find the time & feelings to write the graduation post to do justice to its awesomeness. It. Was. Amazing.

Then I decided I shouldn't drag any longer and should just put up all the photos and talk about the general stuff and leave those itsy bitsy tingly things & feelings unsaid because:

"生活中有些东西藏在心里便是一种真实，一种深刻；说出来，反而索然无味"

(this is from the ACSI chinese paper)

Basically it says some things are better left unsaid.

So I'm gonna keep all the wonderful memories safe in my head :)

Anyway so in general graduation was bangboombazookawow.

First batch to do a flash mob, to have batch shirts & hoodies, and with a wonderful song that everybody loved.

Okay photos!

With part of the batch on the day before graduation :)

With the retarded people from 404 :)

With part of JERMS :)

Omg I have to say something here.

I woke up on the day of graduation feeling super sad & fully expected myself to cry waterfalls in farewell assembly itself, but the tears didn't come all the while, when we were sitting on the amphi steps and when we were huddled in a circle as a class & singing all the grad songs cause.. they just didn't come.

It was only until I went down and saw the netballers and Minchih cried, making Dawne cry, making Elaine & I cry )':

Totally couldn't help it, the best people I've been with for 4 whole years.

Been through so much together, both physical trainings & bondings and everything ahhhhhh.

It's almost like seeing a family member around and it's so sad that everything's gonna be different next year.

Yes we're all moving on together but yknow.. we'd have different CCAs, different friends, and we just.. wouldn't be around as much ):

Not that that would break us apart but this marks the end of our 4 years of Raffles Netball as batch 11. Again, ahhhhhhhh.

Okay now photos from my iPhone.

Took a photo with almost everyone when I went back to the class!

There are people I don't really speak to, there are people I can go on and on with, there are people whom I can count on to know everything, there are people who are accepting of who I am.

And they make 404 complete :)

A ban tongxue! :)

And part of 404 :)

RGS has taught me so much, far more than what the academics cover:

The things in life that actually matter.

It has given me more than what I could ask for and I wouldn't trade it for anything.

Even though I always whine whine whine hahaha.

And this is the first time I'm putting my school name big & proud here.

Trust me if you ever want to try going back my archives and ctrl+F every single page you would never find it and I mean it cause I am conscious about not naming my school.

Not cause I scared people stalk me la haha but more like..

I've never liked telling people I'm from RGS. But here it is :)

4 years of secondary school, I OWNED IT YES.

Filiae Melioris Aevi.

Raff11es.

2011-11-03T22:13:00.004+08:00

Someday it'd lead me back to you.

So it's graduation tomorrow.

It's hard to accept the fact that hey it's been 4 years already and we're leaving tomorrow, even though it seems like we're always waiting for this moment since forever, when we're whining about all the shit work we've to do.

My emotions got stirred a little just by listening to this song; our graduation song written by our own batchmates.

No idea how we'd all be tomorrow I think everyone would be crying waterfalls ):

School today was pretty good, dramafest was nice.

Went to watch netcarn teachers vs netballers match. Last netcarn we're ever gonna witness omg this is saddening ):

We also had this chinese o levels talk thing.

And I don't know if it's cause it's the 2nd last day of school or anything but I felt especially nostalgic cause I know I'm gonna miss every single thing.

Like how we all sit so comfortably in the school hall and not have a care in the world.

This is totally not gonna happen in JC, everyone's been saying you've to sit properly!

And netcarn is one thing I look forward to every single year.

It's hard to believe we've been through 4 netcarns already. Well more than that, if you count the ones I umpire that's not my level.

I still remember how we got thrashed in the first or second netcarn and it's amazing how much we've grown since then. Mentally & physically stronger.

And really, I'm just.. at a loss for words.

They're all trying to trend #raff11es tonight :)

Raff11es.

Best and worst years of my life.

10.

2011-11-01T22:58:00.003+08:00

Pretty hectic!

Haiii, life has been super busy and filled with lots of stuff. I guess I should be grateful cause I'd rather having alot of things to do than to have nothing to do!

1. JERMS outing last Wednesday.

It was wonderful look at our awesome JERMS tee!

So pretty, we all loved it it's plain and simple and proudly exclaims our pride and joy (lol wth?).

Met for lunch at Plaza Sing and found another under-the-escalator (like FEP!) and sat there with our food and talked about the silliest things ever.

Went to Mind Cafe at Clarke Quay only to find out it opens at 2, so we headed to Fullerton's Hotel, where we took the picture above, to slack and kill time.

It was awesome just hanging out with them, haven't seen them so long.

Not to mention running to avoid the storm and being caught in the heavy rain together :)

Glad that even though everyone changed more or less, but we still made the effort to come out and have fun and just catch up on everyone's lives and see how each other have been.

Finally, a full attendance outing! :)

2. Pharm Chem test on Thursday was alright I got 28/35 for an open book test with some help.

Not bad. Above expectations :)

Oh and last what's up lesson was spent talking about.. English essay? o.o

3. Talent Vogue last friday.

Teehee managed to _____ in ^^

Performances were funny and entertaining! Minchih & Dawne got 3rd hehe wootz.

This photo is from Esna, Akoo's classmate! Koped from fb :)

Personally I think her photos are super awesome.

Elizabeth who dressed up as.. some TV character hahahah what a qtpie.

Rachel who is somebody from Dr Who!

I'd never imagine her wearing such clothes in her life wow who knew! ^^

Netballers photo minus Amelia cause she was wandering around.

Hey look it's Jodi who came back :)

Went for supper with Minchih Elaine Dawne Weihing Weizhang Ernest Subastian at some random macs.

I think I'm hungry at night easily lor zzz.

Cabbed home with Dawne & Subastian and the uncle was so talkative and I was so annoyed cause I was intending to sleep.

Aiya I was just annoyed that night la what a Friday night.

But it's over haha it seemed quite fun in my vague memory now :)

4. Worked on Thursday, Saturday & Monday.

I actually like working now it's so much more enjoyable than school.

After horrible options it's like what, talks and random boring stuff?

Anyway it's alot less awkward now that I've gotten to know the people better.

They're actually quite fun people and I just really really cherish my job now :)

Gonna stop for awhile till after chinese Os though, need more time to do chinese.

Finally met Q after so so long on Monday evening after work & dinner.

Did chinese and caught up abit, got to know some of her new friends at Ave 8.

Homed at 9+ whew.

5. Have been going dress shopping with people haha.

More like accompanying them cause I already sort of decided on mine.

Went with Elaine Akoo & Evan on Sunday and Ju Rach Doob Jiale today!

Elaine & Akoo actually bought their dresses already, so did Evan, though she didn't choose the pretty one :(

I tried on my jumpsuit and I really like it ahhhh it turned out to be so much better than I imagined but I still love my dress more so I guess.. I'm gonna buy my freaking 118 dress!!!

Am so excited :D

6. Chinese mock was better than expected. 68.5 overall 1 more freaking mark to A2.

And compo was amazing without deducting marks for cuozis hahahah!

7. Went to NEX to celebrate my bro's birthday today hehe it was super fun.

Sang the birthday song super loudly in Swensons and every head turned and it was embarrassing and high ^^

My bro is gonna turn out macho and hot LOL not sure if he'd be reading this hahahaha!

8. Last week of school. No idea how we'd be during graduation day this Friday.

I'd really miss the school, no matter how much I hated it. )':

I mean afterall I've spent 4 years of my life there!!

Graduation song is good I approve :)

9. Even though Nikita said it's the last week of school and we should go for this whole week........ I'm not going tomorrow :/

Need to spend more time with myself and actually get my life together, especially those things that I have been neglecting due to my everyday returning home late.

I'm gonna write notes to people who actually matter to me in school and also tidy up my acads stuff and just have more calamity in my life.

Cause right now all I'm doing every single day is just a full day of activities from till night time and I barely have time to think long term or middle term and I just feel so disorganised.

10. Can't wait for Os to be over.

Not just chinese Os but Os in general cause the peeps taking Os can't party with me!! ):

Who'd have known, who'd have known?

Ignorance is your new best friend.

2011-10-25T20:34:00.006+08:00

Before it's too late.

Not gonna spend my time on useless things anymore. Like worrying. Being annoyed.

It's just dawned on me that it's 17 days to HCL Os. And how many papers have I completed?

Uhm.. How about NONE. I'm so dead so so dead ):

Anyway, netcarn was horrible for me I died.

Didn't have enough sleep the previous night, slept with wet hair some more, didn't have my usual nap on the bus and it was a freaking hot day.

It's been long since I had headaches it was so terrible I was just annoyed the whole freaking day and just couldn't be bothered with anything more.

Might have annoyed some people while umpiring lol wtf I got pissed off at their contacts when I totally knew that they were unfamiliar with the rules and.. Ugh I got pissed anyway.

And I was so annoyed at having to repeat almost every single thing twice.

Haha I'm sorry it's just me and my headache.

Netballers vs teachers match was fun though I was just like heck la last match with my favourite batchies and went on to play 2 short quarters under the hot sun (Y)

Many PE teachers left so there were more non-PE teachers this time hahaha.

Love my batch so much we make a wonderful team on our own :)

And I was thinking, it would probably be one of my last matches of netball.

I mean if I don't join netball in JC.

I'd probably miss it alot. Freaking 7 years of netball.

I'd miss the adrenaline rush and the teammates so much. It's like an addiction.

Am undecided after talking to Elaine & Akoo about it today.

404!

Blue people.

More blue people.

We didn't win anything hahaha but I wasn't expecting anything anyway :)

AND I JUST REALISED WE DIDN'T TAKE A BATCH PHOTO WHAT IS THIS!? )':

Went home and slept the day away that Saturday I was really dying.

Didn't even care that I was starving I just wanted to get rid of the damn headache.

Shitty immune system, fall sick so easily.

Slacke Sunday away :)

Was supposed to work morning shift on Monday after school but after a match of basketball with the class I died again.

Went home and slacked some more. Not that I intentionally not go to work okay I really just felt so tired and worn out ):

Cancelled on dinner that evening too sigh.

Today was a much better day.

Double chinese + math wow can't believe I survived that.

Mayo talked to me about many many things hahaha my only friend in Chinese class since Doob ponned today grr!

Walked around with Ju at House Carn during recess and with Akoo during lunch hahaha.

Not much of a big carnival more like a fund raiser.

With my favouritest Akoo

Best buy hahaha love the polaroids! Super cute the miffy :)

I realised guys with Akoo's height & build is wonderful see the height just nice, can piggyback me some more ^^

She's damn good okay I only need 1 try to get up every single time! And she's super stable LOL.

What's up was spent in magic lab doing report and slacking around.

Marketing was just consultation and dismissed!!

Seeing good progress for our presentation on Friday :)

Went to Far East Plaza to eat with Akoo after our options hoho love Shilin's sausage cheese egg crepe wootz always makes me happy.

Mum expressed the slightest refusal to sponsor my prom dress.

Well at least she didn't say I couldn't buy it I guess it's a blessing in disguise.

Deepavali tomorrow! Gonna go out with JERMS in our JERMS shirt :)

It's super pretty and simple teehee pics when I get some!

Ignorance

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me

Well, I guess I'll make my own way

It's a circle, a mean cycle

I can't excite you anymore

Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well, sentence me to another life

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it

The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

We're the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend

Transition.

2011-10-21T23:03:00.004+08:00

Glorious it might seem, but it's all empty.

Today was much much better compared to the last few days.

Netball in the morning with batchmates was pretty fun, showered in time for 2nd block math, matriculation talk at the hall, went to Far East Plaza to have lunch with Rachel Ju Doob, met Joe Eliz Sheryl Christina, walked around for Ju's prom dress, back to school for marketing options where this marketing person from Adidas told us about it, and he brought us to Adidas' headquarters in Singapore which was pretty cool, cause they have this concept shop in the office itself where they sell apparels that are not in the retail stores yet, and that store is open to invitation only, meaning not anyone from the public can walk in.

That was a pretty long sentence :)

Haha anyway we got released an hour early from the Adidas store itself, and I walked to Tanjong Pagar MRT with Amirah & Zhuoning, and it was the first time I used the Map app on my iPhone lol.

Went to Clarke Quay and tried on this dress that I would really like to wear to prom.

It's super pretty it's perfect!

..except for the price tag. $118 for a prom dress should I should I should I?!

YES: Only sec 4 once, only one FAM, I am earning money now anyway, it's hard to find a dress that you feel that it's perfect and you have nothing to criticize about, it's at a place where people don't normally go to shop for prom dresses (in fact I just walked past and saw the mannequin and fell in love I didn't even intend to shop for my dress yet) so no one would have the same thing as me, AND I'D LOVE THE DRESS VERY MUCH!

NO: Super expensive, I could buy many many things with that money, I might only wear it once just for FAM and it would be a waste, of both the dress & the money, and especially since it's MY money that I'm gonna use to pay for the dress, my heart will ache double!! Hard to part with $100+ )':

Actually I'm more towards the yes side, it's just the money that's stopping me ughhh.

Seriously hard to find a dress you really like man.

I find a dress that's perfect, yet I am having second thoughts about it why so hard?!

Somebody tell me what to do ):

Last ever netcarn tomorrow morning!

Am not as excited as I was for the last few netcarns but I'm sure it'd be equally fun :)

Especially now that it's more of a 'batch' thing than a 'class' thing.

Hopefully I won't die of fatigue ugh I should sleep now :/

Hurt by a mindless comment today.

Sucks that I still care.

Something is missing in my life (what?).

Need a breather.

2011-10-20T22:30:00.003+08:00

Have been feeling rather negative and snappy lately.

Might be pms, but people have been pissing me off and challenging me.

The whole week sucked. Options sucked. School sucked.

I can safely say I look forward to working after school cause it's just so bad.

Wasted Monday.

Fucked up Tuesday.

Screw Wednesday.

Dreams haunted in one of those days.

Thursday, which is today, was slightly better.

Netball tires me out. Slept a little in classes, during options etc.

Gonna work tomorrow after school!

Also, it's my first field trip for options to somewhere Adidas tomorrow.

2nd last week of options I have my first field trips whereas other people just keeps going out.

Hooray life is fair.

Kay nevermind I shouldn't complain.

Don't know how to talk to some people. I just can't bring myself to it.

I know I'd get pissed off and I'm trying to control myself.

And sometimes I have to go to the extent of ignoring or have minimal communication, which is equally bad as getting pissed off and screwing things up, it really sucks.

Gimme some

Calm me down.

Simplicity.

2011-10-16T18:20:00.002+08:00

My life currently is like a small town.

I learnt how to appreciate the little things that actually do mean something.

I learnt what 'enough' really is, and how blessed I am to have what I have, and not to whine over what I don't.

Cause God has an amazing plan for all of us that is beyond all of our imagination.

It's gonna be amazing, incredulous and extraordinary, nothing short of His power :)

---

Got our math papers back on Friday, and it wasn't that great.

Below my own expectations, in fact.

But I thank God, cause what I got was enough. Well, enough for a 4.0 at least :/

Even when I lost 10 whole marks for math 2 cause I panicked, I thought I wouldn't have time to complete the paper, but I actually do have more than enough time.

Ohwell. It's all over, I'm so glad :)

Even though everybody else still has their exams & that sucks cause no one has time to play with me, I can't even go on study dates cause there's not a freaking thing for me to study.

Chinese doesn't count. I shouldn't complain.

Went out for lunch & back for marketing options.

Which I slept in for the first part, and attending this talk/presentation of some project which we would be involving ourselves in.

I might appear selfish to some people but I can't bring myself to do more for something if I have no interest in it. This commitment is not aligned to what I want to do with my time, & I'm really sorry about it.

I'd rather make the choice that is what I really want, than to go for something that I wouldn't like and regret it later on.

Headed to work after school and it was great. In fact, better.

The girls felt that the playlist sucked and asked if I have any better music and I put my songs on shuffle and was listening to my own songs at work how awesome is that!

Okay maybe not very awesome to some people but I guess I'm music-motivated (is there such a thing?) and it makes time past faster when I do stuff like math papers & yeah work.

Left at 9, cause the other time I stayed till like 1030 I was really tired :/

Went to ave 8 to meet Q, Weizhang & Zhanchun to have my dinner, while they talk/study.

Haven't met them for such a long time, everyone's busy with their own stuff.

Walked home with them after that, was nice catching up with them!

Although mostly they just talked about academics or foreign Bio which I never learnt hahaha.

Went to work again on Saturday, 10-6pm.

Longest shift ever, but it flew by like whoosh!

Cause they opened a new outlet in Cineleisure and they needed to pack candies over, and there were alot of people too so it was pretty busy the whole day.

Learnt how to do the cashier jobs, panicked a little cause I had to memorize the codes for all the different candies and the customer is just standing in front of you it's quite stressful hahaha but I am much better at it now, except for the nets & mastercard part :/

Missed church that day cause I didn't bring change and Q had to study & Minchih had to dance & Elaine went to another church.

Can't wait for the next time though :/

Today was a major slack day, went out for breakfast early morning, came back & watched Doraemon before going back to sleep for another 2 hours (Y)

Watched Captain America and an episode of Drunken in the afternoon wootz.

Is this worthy of the couch potato title ah hahahaha ^^

Saw this on Mayo's blog:

Hahaha love my retarded classmates, they make school so much more enjoyable :)

A new week ahead!

Also, second last week of options I can't wait till it freaking ends.

Peace.

好的事情.

2011-10-13T22:15:00.003+08:00

I'm grateful, really.

Tuesday was a fun but ridiculously tiring day. I should be getting used to this.

Got our Bio & Geog papers back, and it was alright.

I'm contented with my Bio grade not slipping when it's already very bad, and although my Geog slipped one grade, I know I tried my best so -shrugs-

Never one to be sad about grades.

Went to shoot abit with Mayo Ju Rachel & Amanda, but she left early!

Ended up lying around on the courts cause everyone was just damn lazy & tired.

And then we started camwhoring.

Hahahaha funny people :)

Pharm chem was combined in the AVA room and I froze in there.

Went for my job at Sticky after options!

First day was pretty good, the people there were super friendly and open and it wasn't very awkward or anything they're all very nice. I spilt a whole basket of candy and the guy was like, "Don't worry this always happens, we have very little room to move around and they can spill a whole rack of candies one! Just sweep it up, it's alright!"

Makes me feel even worse for spilling it la but it's nice to know I'd be working among people who are so nice :)

Best job ever, so far. The previous ones are just shitty compared to this ^^

Oh and I don't make the candies, that's the guys' job.

I pack, seal, restock, etc, mostly at the back basement.

And then Doobie Ju & Rachel came to surprise visit me!!!

I was packing the candies at the shelves and they knocked on the window and I turned and saw them and I'm like awwww :') :')

They said they wouldn't come, maybe another time, and I told them I don't really know what's gonna happen too so I don't know if it was a good idea that they came but they did anyway and I'm super happy.

Doob & Rachel even waited an hour for Ju in the library cause her options ended an hour later and apparently Doob fell asleep and they drew on her hahahhaha.

Here's your dedication Doobie, since you requested it you get a special mention! :)

They went on to make friends with the guys who make the candies and bought some.

And today they even told me that they devised a plan in case I was at the back and couldn't come out/didn't know that they were there hahaha something about speaking super loudly and Ju's trademark "HUHHH?" to let me know that they're there LOL.

Love them aloooot ^^

Worked till like 1030 when the shopped closed, I was super worn out by then.

Reached home around 1130 and both my mum & dad were at the overhead bridge waiting for me, and although they both acted like it was the last place they wanted to be and nagged a lot cause they're just like that, I really appreciated it :')

Thank God for such a wonderful experience, and such supportive friends & family.

Thank You for really being with me all this while :)

---

Woke up and was so tired the whole of today. I guess night shifts aren't really my thing.

Got our Chem & English papers back and I would say I exceeded my expectations for both.

Chem went up a grade & I have no idea what's my GPA for english now and I'm super sure it dropped but I thought I did pretty okay for the essay so I'm not complaining.

Compre was bad as usual hahaha what's new?

Had both enriched & advanced today. Finally, progress for What's Up.

3 hours of lab lesson was just too long.

Doobie joined our lesson today.

Was supposed to go to Yishun with Rach Ju for their subway interview with Doob (hehe everyone's getting a job), but it was pretty late and I was going home for dinner so I accompanied Doob to amk before heading home.

Pretty tiring day today, didn't go to work haha.

Watched an ep of Drunken.

Gonna work again tomorrow. Will try to end earlier haha I'm a pig I sleep alot.

休息是为了走更长的路

My immortal.

2011-10-11T22:10:00.005+08:00

It's only Tuesday goodness. It's been a pretty long week. Or 2 days.

Options are boring as usual, really can't stand it.

Okay What's Up's been good, since now we just have to discuss & plan for our presentation next week and my groupmates are pretty decent people who are actually quite fun to be with :)

And we digress alot so it's less boring.

Oh yeah, went to church on Saturday evening with Minchih, Q & Kimberly!

Am so glad Minchih came with me. Service was awesome, and she is now a christian :)

God is so amazing.

Felt especially emotional in that service, I guess the others felt that way too.

It's just something really close to our hearts and many things unspoken altogether.

We all went up to the front and people prayed for us and it's really touching how people, strangers, who are not related to us at all except that we're all brothers & sisters in Christ, care about you and they were really really praying for us.

Thank You :)

Went to Nex to mug with Suyun & Ju on Sunday. Got chased out of Teadot before they came.

Ended up at food republic which was freezing cold ):

Had paper checking some.. random day last week, got back SS, Philo and Physics.

Pretty happy with all of them so far, given that I actually hit all my targets for all.

Gonna get back Bio and Geog tomorrow, guess I won't be happy after tomorrow ):

Rained like crazy on monday after Math 2.

The paper was crazy as well. Super tough for me. Not happy.

Math is one of the subjects that I want to get a 4.0 for.

Okay more like the only subjects, since math has 1 & 2, it's double weightage.

Showered even though I was freezing cause of the rain, and walked/ran in the rain to get to Ion with Ju, Rach, Xinyu & Jielin for lunch!

Went for an interview at Sticky, which is a rock candy shop if you don't already know!

Some anon person posted on my cbox there --> that I should probably try out Sticky & I did!

I emailed them and scheduled for an interview after math that afternoon.

It was pretty alright, gonna start working on Wednesday, like probation period only la! :)

Not very sure what's it gonna be like but I guess I'll find out tomorrow haha.

Would like to say thanks a million to Anon for your suggestion here, since I don't know who you are! ^^

It's like until 10pm though, hopefully I won't get too worn out.

But it's not like I have anything better to do after school.

Okay correction, not like I have anything better to do, in or after school -.-

School is really crap now.

Since after math life is like. Boo.

No point in anything, no fun & play cause of stupid options and exams and O levels that the others are still having.

Played pool at my condo with Rach & Ju in the afternoon on Monday.

Wasn't as fun cause the white ball was missing so we had to use the black one and there was no last ball D:

Slacked/snacked around, before heading home and having my well deserved nap :)

Went to school at 11 today cause I didn't have History or Lit paper checking.

Met Ju Rach Doob Xinyu at Far East for breakfast before that.

Uhm school was okay. Till the last part.

Skip.

Oh btw talkbox is fun :D

It's like whatsapp, except that you send short voice recordings & pictures only, no text.

Q managed to make me download it, and I only have 2 friends then.

Now I have like 10 friends, 6 of which I persuaded to download hahaha!

It's kinda awkward if it's with someone you don't really know, but it's mad fun if it's with your friends hahaha. And also lazy people like me can just send a voice recording instead of tediously typing out texts ^^

Gonna start work tomorrow. Wish me luck!

I'll be at The Central at Clarke Quay, would love a visit if I could meet you :D

An old Evanescence song that I really like to freak you out cause the woman is kinda scary.

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave

Cause your presence still lingers here, and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you screamed, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me, by your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away all of the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you screamed, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you screamed, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

All surrendered to You.

2011-10-07T22:26:00.006+08:00

Judge all you want; I don't really care.

It's finally Friday wootz. This week had been intolerably long :(

Was sick for half the week, still a little sick now, came down with flu & bad cough.

My cough sounds really horrible like there's alot of phlegm but there's no phlegm inside actually so it quite hurts badly sometimes.

I think one of the reasons I fell sick was cause I haven't been having enough sleep.

Cancelled my school bus service for forever, cause I doubt we'll be taking the bus for the whole of November, and also if I cancel I can come later on certain days & also save some money, which is like $200.

Which my dad allowed me to pocket cause he said I saved it ^^

Have been taking 156 to school starting this week, but it's hard to sleep on the bus cause there are more people in the morning.

Either I get a lousy seat that gets disrupted often, or I get a seat with no leg space.

I hate the latter the most. Seriously how do you sleep sitting upright?!

I like to sit all the way at the back or just behind the door cause the seats have the most leg space to slouch and lean my head at the back of the chair.

Hate it when I don't get them D:

Therefore I am sleep deprived, falling ill easily ):

Went to the sick bay for the entire 2h lesson of Pharm Chem on Wednesday (Y)

Had a good nap, I was really in deep sleep when they woke me up, love the sick bay hoho.

I only started going there in Sec 4 hahaha :)

Felt so much better after that.

Got much better today, played netball with my batchmates this morning!

We changed, went to sit at the bus stop to escape morning assembly, and the security guard, knowing our intentions, told us when it was time for us to go back :)

It was fun, playing netball again after so long!

Missed the netballers so much hoho.

Coughed like mad but it was worth it. Sat down and talked about random stuff for awhile.

Showered without washing my hair before slacking around, eating sushi, going up to class to slack some more, and attending the SAT talk at 930.

Such a lazy morning I love it :)

Batch 11's trademark - frownsmile!

Did options research with Elaine & Nicolette, watched half an episode of Drunken To Love You during enriched block before going down for lunch.

Honestly today is the only day I feel like the school is my home. Literally.

Do what you feel like. Shower, eat, slack, watch drama, have fun, eat some more. Wootz.

Had Humans AEM in the afternoon, I was really just waiting for time to pass.

Dinner with Doob, Ju, Rachel at TPY's With A Pinch Of Salt hehe my fav grilled chicken chop.

Though it was hard today ugh. Had fun anyway, love their retardedness ^^

Spamming all the photos we took today:

LOL @ RACHEL'S CENTRE PARTING!

Hahaha we're all trying to copy Juleen's smile, which her eyes can't be seen.

She's actually opening her eyes in this photo BUT YOU CANNOT TELL RIGHT?!

Lol copying Ju's smile again ^^

Y'all are such retards.

Did she open her eyes.. or not? ^^

Hahaha I got the direction wrong and everyone ended up not looking at Doobie loll!

Except Rachel on top, which Doob so coincidentally happened to look at.

Got the right direction this time round :)

That was an early dinner, so I should sleep soon before I start getting hungry O:

Gonna study in the afternoon tomorrow with Q, Elaine & Minchih before heading to church in the evening yayyy :)

Love it when I go to church. And I might need some help in math too :/

Need to cut my fringe again it's getting thicker. Think it's only been less than a month lol.

Thank God my mum's a hairdresser. Gonna go down to her salon this Sunday.

Look how far I've come.

Like a million little stars,

2011-10-04T21:08:00.002+08:00

Spelling out your name.

I was almost there. No idea why I gave up halfway either.

Am so tired after all this while.

Actually, all I wanted was your decision: to stay or to leave.

You gave me neither.

Prove it to me; I don't want any plain assurance.

Or just go.

---

Have been doing math these few days.

Went to school early morning in the rain only to find out that there's no core lessons.

Did math for more than 3 hours with some distractions in between.

Finally got 100% in my career mode for Asphalt 6.

It's this race car iPhone app, super duper fun! Kartrider no kick liao hahaha.

Went home early, didn't attend Humans AEM options cause I was sick.

Flu + bad cough, all I wanted to do was to get home and plank on my bed.

But I met Q downstairs in the end and we talked alot :)

Love her alot, for bringing me the balance when my life goes crazy ^^

Super tired recently, haven't been sleeping well sigh.

I want it that way.

Left.

2011-10-03T22:00:00.002+08:00

I just realised that there's nothing in my life that's going the way I want.

Yeah I know how fortunate I am, how blessed I am, and maybe I'm asking for too much, but I really really just wish that something would go my way, and I'd be happy again.

I guess mostly it's cause of options period. I really really hate it. As I expected.

Maybe I'm too used to ending at 1 or 2pm.

And also, Q & everyone else are having their Os so I can't play ):

I'm totally not mugging for math. Really lazy I can slap myself.

Ugh super annoyed.

I really hate this. I do I really do.

How you could manipulate me.

You deserve the best, beautiful.

2011-10-02T20:41:00.002+08:00

As much as I wanna have another chance,

I have no confidence of doing it right for the second try.

School is boring. Nothing to talk about.

Well, except that I hate options. All of them, so far. Unless one of them decides to get better.

Most of the time I'm just sitting there like, "Okay... so?"

Ugh.

Complicated stuff for the past few days.

I don't wanna be involved anymore. Too much for my puny hate.

Trust issues.

Made me realise how scary an "I tell you but you don't tell anyone okay" is.

Cause everyone else is just going to use that too.

Not blaming anyone.

Went to celebrate Jordan's birthday at kbox @ Hougang Plaza last night!

Was awesome, went from 6-11pm. Except that I had a sore throat boo.

Bought him a cake from Bengawan Solo lol :)

4 more days to math exam.

Today is the day I finally decided to start studying/practicing math.

The break is really detrimental. I played too much that I'm in no mood to study at all.

Math is actually one of the few subjects (only the only one actually) that I expect myself to get 4.0 for seriously.

I'm doing well, I need no replacement.

You had a lot of crooks, tryna steal your heart.

Never really had luck, couldn't ever figure out how to love.

You don't know you're beautiful.

2011-09-28T22:32:00.003+08:00

So..

Sogurt didn't happen. They said 16 was too young ):

First thing that they said when I sat down was. "You came in your uniform?"

I was too lazy to change out and what's wrong with coming in my uniform anyway..?

The woman said she saw the email wrongly and didn't know I was 16.

But for one, I do know people who are 16 and working in there.

Though it wouldn't be right to point that out I feel?

But they were nice, the boss said I could wait awhile more before applying again.

And also she pointed out that since I'm going to RJ next year, I wouldn't be able to cope.

That's true.

And they also apologised quite a few times so it wasn't that bad like boom direct rejection kinda thing hahahah.

So I guess that's the best way out of this?

Though I still do wish I could work there :/

Thanks to Elaine & Alethea for accompanying me there and encouraging me/calming my nerves haha :)

Moving on!

Dissed Ajisen cause they only wanted people for weekend night shifts.

That is from 5-10pm on Saturdays and Sundays.

Well I wouldn't wanna sacrifice church, family dinners and fun times for 30 bucks a night!

I am so picky when I'm the one who's looking for a job lolol.

Am looking into events and jobs that are like a few days and lots of money after being super tired for a day.

Wanna try out different stuff too :)

School was alright today, wasted time waiting for options as usual.

Pharm Chem was a little more interesting today, we were introduced to new drugs and their effects, it's kinda cool.

Except that I dozed off for awhile. And Rachel & Yingjiao both fell asleep beside me haha!

So for awhile, our whole row was asleep. Whereas the rest of the class are like O_O kinda attentive. Tsk!

Longest day ever tomorrow.

Sudden urge to shoot at the courts in the morning :)

Where are the crazy days?

Moving on,

2011-09-27T21:59:00.002+08:00

And with that, I'm living better than before.

What's Up Singapore today was okay..

Though I think the discussions were choppy main cause we were all unfamiliar with each other cause it's our first lesson, and I don't really feel attached to the issue.

This is in contrast to our normal english class cause we are comfortable with our classmates, and also we talk about things presented by ourselves.

But.. good enough for a first lesson!

Humans AEM was better I feel. Though I slept for awhile lolz.

It's about marketing and the external lecturer was quite engaging and I learnt cool stuff.

And the best thing that happened today was that.. Sogurt replied my email!

About a part time job. That I sent days ago.

Interview's tomorrow. Kinda clashes with my Pharm Chem option but I can only beg to leave earlier, or reach there later. Hopefully not the latter :/

Mummy says I can use her name to get out of the class if necessary lol!

I reaaally hope I can get the job, preferably at the Nex outlet.

Please O Lord please please!!

Can't wait for tomorrow :)

心该怎么学会去适应

那些没你的安静

All I ever wanted.

2011-09-26T18:55:00.006+08:00

Time; so powerful.

Weekends were awesome!

Went to church on Saturday with Q & Kim wootz :)

It has been a month or two since I've been to church. I thank God for this opportunity.

And for forgiveness that I prioritized many things before Him ):

Gonna try to go more now.

Headed to Serangoon Gardens after church at night for dinner.

How wonderful of them to finish eating and save delicious chicken rice for me with vegs and everything else, even when there was a horrendously long queue outside.

Finished my big plate of food in 5-10 minutes cause I felt so bad lol indigestion!

Had Frolick after that hoho.

Tried out my Actioncam app with them hoho :)

That's my parents, myself, Reinvs, my cousin, her boyfriend, my aunt, Jordan, my mum & myself, myself & Jordan, just to fill up the boxes.

... if you were wondering! ^^

Went biking that night with them!

Love night cycling, it's super cooling and quiet.

And then a whole bunch of us like.. 7 people? Just zooms past hahaha!

I don't sleep well at night if I don't exercise in the day ):

I'd always love a good night's sleep, but I'm always too lazy to exercise in the morning unless it's like training, basketball, or people ask me out to play with them haha.

I like to just crash in bed and not think about anything at all. Sweeeeet.

Went to support Styletz with Q & Zhanchun on Sunday!

It's a dance crew consisting of Minchih, Dawne, Weihing, Weizhang, Subastian & Ernest.

And the thing was, all 3 of us told them that we couldn't make it, like we need to study, go out or stuff like that, intending to surprise them!

The best part was, we were creeping around the CC where they were auditioning, and they saw us first T.T

I think there was a glass door and the sunlight was super strong outside, making it a one-way mirror and us look like idiots -.-

So it was quite fail, but nvm it's the effort that counts hahaha!

Pictures from Q when she uploads, except that her cam's with me lol!

Hopefully I can return her tonight!

Took a bus to Far East after that and had lunch.

My favourite ramen stall hoho.

Here are the awesome people :)

Went to Scape after that, we wanted to play at Playnation but it was totally full ):

Went up to 360 without borders and played free kinect lol!

Homed in the evening. Skip skip skip.

This is my best friend and I will never leave her alone :)

School today. At least my monday afternoons are free.

Ended school at 11. Okay 10 actually, but we aren't allowed to leave till 11+ so yeah.

Tennis lesson wasn't as fun. Miss Mr Ng ):

Played a little netball before heading up to class.

Went out with Minchih, Doob, Ningxin & Mayo, except that she ain't in the photo cause she left early haha. Akoo came later and we sat under the escalator to talk about funny things lol!

And mean things too haha. Some people think the world is revolved around them ohwell.

Who am I to judge? I might be once like that too.

All I can say is, what you're doing now would only make you disgusted by yourself and what you did in the future, and this is really true.

Went to J8 with Akoo & Minchih for a job interview (which I ain't really keen on cause I'd really prefer something else but.. :/ nvm) and in spite of everything, it was actually quite fun and idk, it adds on to my experience?

Hahaha ohwell what else to do now actually..? Feel like my life is so goalless currently.

Tomorrow is the start of enriched options and also my Humans AEM, which was postponed for a week.

Somehow I don't look forward to it.

It's math 1 EYA next week! Study study study O:

Another reason to hate?

Couldn't even if I wanted to.

This is how much I care right now.

Under all that act, you're just a really ugly person deep inside.

I used to want you so bad, I'm so through with that.

2011-09-24T10:10:00.002+08:00

Limitless, invulnerable, fearless.

I have nothing to blog about nowadays.

It's just school, core lessons, options in the afternoon, if not then go home or go out to study, and endless amounts of time wasted.

I'm one of those people who doesn't cherish every minute to do something useful.

If you give me an hour or two to wait for my next class, chances are, I won't do anything constructive at all.

Therefore I hate options period. Hopefully I get used to it soon.

Mugged with Mayo after school on Tuesday while the rest goes back for options when it was pouring and freezing like crazy even in the freaking food court.

Anyway for options, I've only been to Pharm Chem so far on Wednesday & Thursday.

Both What's Up Singapore & Humans AEM start next week so I had 3 free afternoons (which I wasted away, no doubt) this week.

The idea of Pharm Chem is interesting in general, like how you understand drugs and what they do, but currently we're still at the beginner level and everything just goes so slowly, and we don't really learn about any particular drug yet, just aldehydes, ketones, which are homologous series that are part of organic chem I think, just not tested for exams.

So.. guess who fell asleep in the first Pharm Chem lesson :/

And the only reason I didn't fall asleep in the second one was cause it was prac in the lab.

Y so fail ):

Bball in the evening with Q & J on Friday, and I think I sort of like 3-on-3s :)

Played against xm volleyballers and how high they jump zzz.

Haven't played bball for long omg, felt so good after I sweat it all out.

Could totally feel my stamina gone and muscles super tight though.

This is not good.

Going to church today!! :)

After so so long. I actually feel quite excited hoho.

Elaine's coming if she feels better by the evening.

It's gonna be a tiring week next week with more options modules coming up.

Not really looking forward.

Everyone else's O levels are coming up too no fun ):

Anyway, found these awesome youtube videos, they're goooood.

Thank God you blew it,

Thank God I dodged a bullet.

I'm so over you, so baby good lookin' out.

The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed.

2011-09-20T17:57:00.005+08:00

HAI ALLLLL.

It's been ages since I last posted hohoho.

EYAs were last week and I was totally caught up in my books & notes every single day because after one paper you immediately study for the one the next day.

And it's kinda scary how last minute I was, like how I only have that one day before the papers to finish revising but heckkk that's how I study and I thank God that everything was alright that 4 crazy days (hopefully).

Anyway, papers are over and I have no intention to think about them again zzz!

So after EYAs are over (except for math and higher chinese o levels), I've just been playing and playing for the subsequent days hoho.

Didn't have school on Friday cause I've no RA papers, no school on Monday either cause there weren't lessons and I didn't have advanced options in the afternoon either.

So it was like a long weekend for me and I intended to pack up all my books from mugging during EYAs but that didn't happen, as expected ^^

Went to play pool at Doob's house with Ju on Thursday after school, after having 'class lunch' at Far East that only about.. a third of the class went for.

But people like Nikita & Annabel came, which is like a once in a blue moon kinda thing that we go out together so it was pretty nice, hanging out with what's left of the class :)

Nikita's freaking going back to India after this year she ain't coming to RJ with us omg ):

We were saying how she should invite us all over to India when she gets married and we can have a class gathering at her wedding hohoho super exciting.

Anyway photos from pool!

This is actually a timed shot that Doobie took.

She clicked the camera and ran over to do the above pose.

It would've been cool if I didn't mention that ^^

Happy people who are addicted to pool.

Juleen wants to master..

.. the game of pool :)

Didn't have school on Friday so Akoo, Evan, Chin & I went to Cara's house to play & clear her pantry like we always do!

The rest of the batch had stuff on, but it was a nothing-to-do day anyway :)

Played Band Hero!

My fav wii game yayyy.

Hahaha happy girls playing & laughing at ourselves ^^

Cara's camera is goooood.

Went back and sat at the bball court where Q, Jasper, Zhanchun, Weizhang, Chris and Avel-Hongkoon and friends were playing.

Didn't play cause I was still coughing, it has been super long rawr D:

Dad was bringing me to the doctor's anyway, so I just sat there with them while waiting for him.

Love how all these awesome people live so near :)

Went jamming with Q, Weizhang & Zhanchun on Saturday!

Weihing didn't come so we were short of a guitarist but.. nvm still (Y)

Was pretty fun, haven't jammed for long.

Did covers like Need You Now, Rolling In The Deep, but it was like our first time doing covers so it was funny but heyyy good enough for a first time :D

Q & I tried out new iPhone photography apps on the way home.

Okay maybe not very new but new to us!!

We were sitting at the front of the bus making a fool of ourselves hahahah ^^

And then there was once we were Bumping each other on the train, using the Bump app and it was super funny we found everyone's devices instead of each others' hahahhaha!

Traveling with her is always fun we always notice funny stuff and do stupid things :)

Went to pool at my condo with Q and her teammates Celine and Alicia!

It's near Farrer Park MRT, just beside City Square Mall & we have it for quite long already & I don't actually reside in there but I have the access card so once in awhile my family goes there to swim/gym/play pool/bowling/have functions/bbq etc.

Watched Johnny English Reborn with Doob, Ju, Mayo, Rachel & Suyun on Monday morning, when everyone else has school/work.

Got our tickets at $4 because I had alot of those 1-for-1 coupons that GV gave out in the last few months..?

The movie was freaking hilarious, I couldn't stop laughing at some parts even though I tried because it was retarded to be laughing like that but it was JUST SO FUNNYYY.

Wouldn't even mind watching a second time if it weren't that you have to pay again hahaha!

Doob Mayo & Suyun went back to school for their advanced options module after the movie.

Ju, Rach & I didn't have any options that day so we went to play pool (again) at my condo LOL.

Ignore my ugly face please. Stupid fringe was blocking my eyes, I couldn't play properly zzz.

It was fun & funny, as usual with these retarded people ^^

Went home and slept and was late to meet Q at MXP.

Not going there for tuition with them anymore ):

I should be happy that my exams have ended haha. 30+ days to their Os!

School started today, was very gloomy because after 4 days of play it's no mood for school.

Turns out that my Humans AEM options were postponed so I didn't have anything today except for chinese lessons lolz.

Have this feeling that I'm not gonna like options period, with everyone all over the place it's hard to organise anything, and we've to stay in school for hours waiting for our next class it's super annoying, I hate staying in school.

So.. all is fine. I guess?

They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me.

Young love murder, that is what this must be.

I would give it all to not be sleeping alone.

I'll be wearing white.

2011-09-10T23:27:00.002+08:00

1 more day left to mug for EYAs.

1 freaking more day.

I do hope I have completed what I should have completed by now and not realise last minute that I left out some stuff D:

Mugged the whole day today.

Tuition early @ 11 with Q, headed to J8 to meet Elaine to mug some more my head is burst.

Dinner at night at Marché @ 313, my maxi was so long & hot it killed me the first time I wore it today. Bad buy.

Motion sickness (which is rather rare for me) to and from 313, cause my dad swapped cars with my cousin and I have no idea if it's the smell or the car or my belt or whatever that made me feel so much like vomiting.

Need to chiong hardcore tomorrow.

Nobody ain't no stopping meeee!

If I die young, bury me in satin.

Lay me down on a bed of roses.

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.

2011-09-08T22:36:00.004+08:00

I know you can only connect the dots looking back.

You don't know what's gonna happen in the future but looking back, you see how everything all falls beautifully into place, why things happen, how one event leads to another, all part of God's marvelous work.

And I know things are gonna get better, and I'm gonna get out of this mess in time to come.

But right now, I just can't imagine how it's gonna happen, and if it's gonna happen the way I wish it.

I just cannot see any way out of this.

I can't wait to move on, and look back.

And know what exactly happened in the end.

Even if it means things turning out how I dread it.

I just.. wanna know.

It's been so so long.

---

So.. I've gotten better from being ill.

It's been a bad week for me, being sick almost all 7 days from Tuesday.

But I'm much better now, only with a slight cough!

Praise the Lord :)

Sentosa wasn't very fun, there's almost nothing to do there.

We didn't go to USS having been there already, my parents couldn't go to the casino with us kiddos around either, so.. we went to the beach, played the Luge (it's some racing kart thing that you've to take a.. cable-car-thing-with-no-walls-just-seats thing up to the start of the race) and ate Din Tai Fung and played taitee/monodeal and that's about it.

The beach wasn't as fun as Australia's, but fun enough!

Luge was fun I wouldn't mind a 2nd try.

We saw the iFly thing too, where they have super strong wind blowing up and you can fly.

The people look especially retarded in it haha but I wouldn't mind trying but it's very ex ):

Din Tai Fung was queueless hohoho best part ^^

And my family is a card games addict, all 5 members of it, my parents, Reinvs, and even 8 year old Jordan. We have more than enough for a 4-player taitee so we rotate around, the loser gets out the next round.

Self-entertainment anytime, anywhere, when we go on trips ^^

Parents found out about my helix piercing during the trip hoho.

No drastic reaction, no requests to close it, no nothing.

Came as a shock for me, but I'm not complaining!!!

Went back to school the next morning though, there was Bio & Physics CES D:

Only loser who woke up early in the morning and walked across the bare hotel lobby when nobody else is up. Brr.

Nice to see all my classmates though, hehe! Haven't seen them in awhile.

Got an iPhone 4 on Wednesday, it's white!

It cost 480 bucks with the cheapest student plan, and I paid for half of it :)

And I love it very very much.

I love its whiteness hoho.

Met Q today and mugged at Compasspoint in the afternoon, before heading to tuition.

Both of them were fulfilling I'm a happy kid.

Productive mugging sessions make me less stressed :)

Have mugged almost all of Physics.

But if somebody asked me if I'm confident.. I'd never be confident haha.

You can never mug enough!

And.. you don't know what you don't know D:

So how would I know if I've mugged enough? ):

Anyhow, I need to start on Bio tomorrow.

Don't even know if I've got all the slides.

3 more days of the holidays, starting to feel the pinch.

Gogogo! :)

Pretty please, don't you ever ever feel like you're nothing,

You're fucking perfect to me.

Everyday I'm shufflin'.

2011-09-05T21:29:00.003+08:00

Heading to Sentosa tomorrow with my family for 2 days 1 night.

Still having slight fever, a little weak and uncomfortable. But getting well! :)

Hopefully I'd be alright by tomorrow.

No idea what to do at Sentosa! Doubt we're visiting USS having been there quite a bit.

Heading back to school on Wednesday at 730am for Bio & Physics CES D:

I've been sick for almost a week now.

Lord please let me get well asap thanks :'(

We gon' make you lose your mind.

B-e-a-utiful.

2011-09-05T12:26:00.002+08:00

I wanna be blown away,

I wanna be swept off my feet,

I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe.

I wanna be lost in love,

I wanna be your dream come true,

I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you.

Just call me beautiful.

Motivation.

2011-09-03T11:22:00.004+08:00

Not gonna blog so much for now, the last week of EYAs are coming up.

I'm on my quest to be studying everyday for this September holidays :)

Am still sick, I can only croak.

I don't even dare to step out of the house with this cui face of mine ):

Have been feeling weirdly cold/warm and my body temperature's all weird.

Missed class gathering for 6.1'07/5.1'06 yesterday morning.

Miss wang didn't go for breakfast either.

I need to have some fun :(

Have been stuck at home for the past.. 3 days. 3 freaking days!!! D:

Met Q last night at macs, was quite fun catching up :)

PLEASEEE let me get better soon. Please please please.

The taste of your honey is so sweet.

2011-09-01T17:02:00.003+08:00

So, I've been sick since Tuesday. Am thinking if it's cause of playing bball in the rain on Monday or because I ate 2 fried chicken wings on Tuesday.

Bball on Monday was okay-ish, alot of bballers from diff schools came and it was kinda tough for me cause I didn't know what to do since they're all pro-ish and it was all too challenging for me ):

Visit Minchih before that, cycled to her house & back!

She still looks quite cui, but well enough to steal food hahaha.

Cycled to Kovan for breakfast & back with my parents & my brother on Tuesday morning.

They super on laa dunno what's wrong with them :/

Was supposed to go mug with Q that afternoon, but I fell sick and gave it a miss ):

Anyway, I went to school on Wednesday anyway, cause I needed to pass them this!

Developed into photographs, given to all our teachers for the class party today (which I missed).

I do hope they fun, though I heard celebrations were sucky hahaha.

Slept for most of the day on Wednesday & today hahaha.

School on Wednesday was mostly sleeping too, I slept in chinese, went to the sick bay and slept for 1h 40mins (Y)

And while I was sleeping, I dreamt that I walked out of the sick bay myself and wandered around the school and suddenly ended up at home and have completely no idea how I got home.

And then I woke up, & I'm still at the sick bay -.-

Was freezing for most of the day, even though everyone said it was pretty warm :/

Went home and slept some more woohoo.

Terrible night last night, I was shivering non-stop with 2 jackets & blanket covering every single inch of my body, had a terrible nightmare and 2 hours later, my stomach hurt so much that I woke up in pain and ran to the toilet only to collapse outside, before literally dragging myself into the toilet and had super bad diarrhea, during which I was totally numb all over and my ears were ringing.

No idea what's wrong man why so drama D:

Skipped school & saw a doctor today.

Slept some more, woke up in a puddle of sweat, still drowsy. Much better now, though.

Didn't go back to my primary school or anything like that.

Hopefully I recover by tomorrow to start mugging/going out if not I'm just like wasting my time away D:

Shit I totally feel like I'm floating, no idea what I'm saying. Drowsy much.

Hello, hello remember me? I'm everything you can't control.

Wild.

2011-08-29T00:05:00.007+08:00

Photos from bball on Friday :)

Cui max.

We played from 3+ to 7pm.

LOL we did the same thing and kicked each other it was hilarious :D

This uncle is the saviour at the courts with his drinks hehe :)

---

Wasted my weekends away, did nothing constructive with Q at her house.

Went 'grocery shopping' with her, meaning buy all the useless junks and snack at home hahaha!

Cut my hair today yayyy. It doesn't whip my face when I'm playing bball now!

All the bad ends are gone, and my tail is sharper nowww ^^

Gonna take care of my hair, cannot use my mum's salon's shampoo already, too strong for me ):

Just met Q, Zhang & Chun for dinner @ Hougang Mall.

Played pool for an hour at Hougang Plaza. It's been super long I screwed up ):

Whatever little goodness at pool I have in me evaporated D:

It's gonna be a fun day tomorrow, lots of activities planned! :)

It's nothing but self defense.